Bloodflowers wrote:
how to?
I feel like I keep talking about it and everytime I talk about it I become less conserned bout being nice about it.
I keep thinking but what if everything really was my fault?
but I don't act like that around anyone else and I never have.
How do I get over all the lies? Being treated so cold? All accusations of things I haven't done? Demanding to know things I don't have to share? Reading my dairy? Changing their mind from one day to another? Rarely being comforted when I cried? That everything is my fault? I feel used.
All the good traits that I held on to. But it isn't normal counting the days between arguments and waiting for 1 week without an argument.
I keep thinking if I just actively try and keep thinking about something else then I can keep the thought of maybe they're happy without me away.
how to?
I feel like I keep talking about it and everytime I talk about it I become less conserned bout being nice about it.
I keep thinking but what if everything really was my fault?
but I don't act like that around anyone else and I never have.
How do I get over all the lies? Being treated so cold? All accusations of things I haven't done? Demanding to know things I don't have to share? Reading my dairy? Changing their mind from one day to another? Rarely being comforted when I cried? That everything is my fault? I feel used.
All the good traits that I held on to. But it isn't normal counting the days between arguments and waiting for 1 week without an argument.
I keep thinking if I just actively try and keep thinking about something else then I can keep the thought of maybe they're happy without me away.