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Rouya wrote:
idk whats wrong with me i cant go to the store to do grocery shopping i dont have any food i havent been outside in 3 days. i have pizza leftovers from last night, which is all i ate yesterday, half a pizza
idk whats wrong i just feel bad like in my head, everything feels heavy and like the tiniest chore requires an insurmountable amount of effort. i also havent showered in 3 days. and it's not helping that i have a friend who i feel is suffocating me with her existence. not that she is messaging me constantly or anything, it's just that she is extremely unpredictable and i have come to realise that i just genuinely do not enjoy spending time with her and we live in the same apartment complex so i run into her quite frequently and then im forced to socialise with her. we are only friends because she moved into my apartment complex a year ago and asked me to have coffee with her (we went to school together 4 years ago but never spoke) and then we just hung out bc it was easy. but she is unstable and unpredictable and we have had huge fights over nothing where she basically just scolds me for "treating her like shit" even though i dont (like once she blew up bc i told her i felt she was misunderstanding what i was saying, and she told me actually i was the one misunderstanding her, and that i was doing it on purpose ???)
and yeah also she constantly talks about how she hates her appearance and i dont like it, bc im trying to come to terms with myself and my appearance, and im trying to be more positive towards me and my body, and i feel like she just drags me down every time i see her. i have tried telling her that im trying to come to terms with liking myself, so i wont focus on the negative anymore, but she doesnt get it, she's just like "ok well i cant do that" and then she continues bashing herself
anyway idk what to do rn i feel stuck and im just venting now
idk whats wrong with me i cant go to the store to do grocery shopping i dont have any food i havent been outside in 3 days. i have pizza leftovers from last night, which is all i ate yesterday, half a pizza
idk whats wrong i just feel bad like in my head, everything feels heavy and like the tiniest chore requires an insurmountable amount of effort. i also havent showered in 3 days. and it's not helping that i have a friend who i feel is suffocating me with her existence. not that she is messaging me constantly or anything, it's just that she is extremely unpredictable and i have come to realise that i just genuinely do not enjoy spending time with her and we live in the same apartment complex so i run into her quite frequently and then im forced to socialise with her. we are only friends because she moved into my apartment complex a year ago and asked me to have coffee with her (we went to school together 4 years ago but never spoke) and then we just hung out bc it was easy. but she is unstable and unpredictable and we have had huge fights over nothing where she basically just scolds me for "treating her like shit" even though i dont (like once she blew up bc i told her i felt she was misunderstanding what i was saying, and she told me actually i was the one misunderstanding her, and that i was doing it on purpose ???)
and yeah also she constantly talks about how she hates her appearance and i dont like it, bc im trying to come to terms with myself and my appearance, and im trying to be more positive towards me and my body, and i feel like she just drags me down every time i see her. i have tried telling her that im trying to come to terms with liking myself, so i wont focus on the negative anymore, but she doesnt get it, she's just like "ok well i cant do that" and then she continues bashing herself
anyway idk what to do rn i feel stuck and im just venting now
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