ouch wrote:
I find it so embarrassing, like new makeup stuff, new clothes (esp in a different style than my usual clothing), stuff like that ?? W the makeup stuff its fine now, most ppl react more if im not wearing makeup than if I am wearing makeup nowadays, even tho its semi heavy, but when I first started it was embarrassing yeah lol.
Same w clothing, I wear more feminine clothing now sometimes instead of like ,,, sweatpants and big band t-shirts every day (esp if im going out/wearing semi elaborate makeup tho) but it was embarrassing to start with cus most ppl r like wtf r u wearing, stuff like that, makes sense since I've always been a girl that looks like a boy I guess so lol.
I wanna start wearing false eyelashes out sometime now, but it feels so embarrassing idk what to do 😭 also I get so paranoid they will look weird or smth, or get loose, so I have to check them every 5 minutes hello, and take videos from all angles and with eyes closed etc to make sure it looks ok but idfk