cobain wrote:
i think maybe he might be cheating on me through that app
but idk. we had a fight in the middle of the night. i went to bed earlier than him, woke up bc bad dreams. went to give him a kiss. he had his dick out but like he was just on the couch, didn't even see me when i came so he wans't doing anything strange rly but dick out still. then i went back to bed and after 5-10 mins i heard he was talking to someone and lets just say i can recognize when he talks to friends or not. he was almost whispering, being quiet. got a bad feeling. went up to him again and he was on a video call with some fucking girl and i went bonkers. he claimed it was a friend who have graduated from uni. doubt it. he wanted me to come say hello but i refused. it looked like more of a live thingy rather than basic video call bc there were hearts flying on the screen, but only the two of them in the call. yeah. this was at 4 in the morning btw.
we had a fight, he thought i was being unreasonable and that i'm too jealous but whatever.
bad feeling this morning too. he woke up late. i sat for a while then came to bed beside him and instantly he like closed a chat which looked like that livu app. purple color. i've never seen him talk on that app, right. it's only the last 1-2 weeks he started getting notifications from it and he removes the notifs instantly more or less. he talks w friends on other chat site thingys and has never hidden anything from me, he uses it in my presence, but never livu.
so after i saw he closed it i decided to check the app out and like i saw a bunch of shit saying it's like cybersex/sexting and whatnot so i went directly to him again and asked what that app is and what he uses it for. he said it's an old app, where he talks to friends. i asked him what it is yada yada he said "it's MY APP" etc i asked to see it and he refused and got defensive and again kept repeating its HIS app. then he got very upset bc he said this isn't working bc i'm too jealous but STOP MAKING ME JEALOUS THEN?? i sat down and talked to him seriously and whatever and idk what the conclusion was but i told him i'd seen it's for women showing off naked and whatever and he said no. but i don't know. yeah. guess it calmed down and i decided to go for a walk whereas i had my friend check it out and he said it looks like tinder but with video. and yeah. idk. i'm pissed and want to puke and i don't know how the fuck to move forward with this. honestly if he is cheating on me, even if it's JUST a cybersex app or whatever nothing physical, i WILL dump him. but i will absolutely 100% make sure he's not getting out of this easily. i will fuck up his entire life. so there's that. we fucking live together. we want to marry, have kids. if he's doing this to me i.... i dont' know.