cobain wrote:
i am almost completely sure that i have bpd
i don't know until i get diagnosed, but there's basically no doubt in my mind
i'm just super scared to seek help for it
i'm scared of the stigma around the diagnose first of all. i truthfully don't want to have bpd, i don't. i don't want people to label me or have prejudices against me. but then again i don't need to tell people i have bpd if i get diagnosed.
i'm also scared of... just getting help generally. having to dig through experiences, me as a person, whatever. being psychoanalyzed. because i'm scared that it will bring things up to the surface to hurt me again. and being completely naked in front of someone, not literally naked, but having to expose myself and my thoughts and all that. that's so scary.
and people using it as a weapon against me in relationships. minimizing my reactions because "you have bpd" type shit. instead of being understanding.
how do i get help?!?!?
and also, is it super weird to just waltz into their office and be like "hey i think i have bpd", because that feels weird to me. but it also feels weird to not even mention it when i think i have it. it feels like i'll then be leading in my conversation with the psychologist and just tick off all the criterias but without mentioning bpd. weird, right??
i just need some guidance lol because i am so so sick of this never ending misery of literally just being me. i need professional help
i am almost completely sure that i have bpd
i don't know until i get diagnosed, but there's basically no doubt in my mind
i'm just super scared to seek help for it
i'm scared of the stigma around the diagnose first of all. i truthfully don't want to have bpd, i don't. i don't want people to label me or have prejudices against me. but then again i don't need to tell people i have bpd if i get diagnosed.
i'm also scared of... just getting help generally. having to dig through experiences, me as a person, whatever. being psychoanalyzed. because i'm scared that it will bring things up to the surface to hurt me again. and being completely naked in front of someone, not literally naked, but having to expose myself and my thoughts and all that. that's so scary.
and people using it as a weapon against me in relationships. minimizing my reactions because "you have bpd" type shit. instead of being understanding.
how do i get help?!?!?
and also, is it super weird to just waltz into their office and be like "hey i think i have bpd", because that feels weird to me. but it also feels weird to not even mention it when i think i have it. it feels like i'll then be leading in my conversation with the psychologist and just tick off all the criterias but without mentioning bpd. weird, right??
i just need some guidance lol because i am so so sick of this never ending misery of literally just being me. i need professional help