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cottagecheese wrote:
here you have another groveling apology or explanation that I, for once, have actually spent some time on. It's still shit though, but i can't exactly change my personality.
some time prior to this, i had fallen down a rabbit hole that genuinely made me question everything i knew and believed. i felt so utterly vulnerable, and i had to shut myself in my room for almost three entire days because i was so paranoid about every bit of information that entered my brain. When i had regained my stability, i desperately needed some reassurance or to have what i had learned disproved. but no one was open to having any actual meaningful discussion with me. So i ended up impulsively making a thread on VP. i never had the demographic in mind when i did it; i had merely run out of options.
i was vindictive, but nothing of what i said was motivated by any underlying hatred towards any of you. i was angry at a failing system and at people who were taking advantage of others. i gradually became more and more frustrated and desperate, and it was hard for me to know what i was supposed to do with those feelings, so i needed to put them somewhere.
Most of what i said shouldn't be taken seriously, as I was partly intentionally trying to garner a reaction. and i am sorry about that. i was genuinely not thinking of the impact it would have on others when i did it. i was just desperate for any form of social interaction at the time. i do, however, understand that i should have just left the topic alone in retrospect. and i would have, were i in my right mind at the time.
i probably won't ever get my account back regardless, but i might as well just apologize, as it could prevent me from going to hell. Besides, Etjen has threatened to report me to the police, so the best-case scenario right now is probably not getting fined or jailed. if he was actually serious about that and it wasn't just to deter me from making fifty more accounts, poor guy.
also why does this just straight up look like an apology written by adolf hitler
here you have another groveling apology or explanation that I, for once, have actually spent some time on. It's still shit though, but i can't exactly change my personality.
some time prior to this, i had fallen down a rabbit hole that genuinely made me question everything i knew and believed. i felt so utterly vulnerable, and i had to shut myself in my room for almost three entire days because i was so paranoid about every bit of information that entered my brain. When i had regained my stability, i desperately needed some reassurance or to have what i had learned disproved. but no one was open to having any actual meaningful discussion with me. So i ended up impulsively making a thread on VP. i never had the demographic in mind when i did it; i had merely run out of options.
i was vindictive, but nothing of what i said was motivated by any underlying hatred towards any of you. i was angry at a failing system and at people who were taking advantage of others. i gradually became more and more frustrated and desperate, and it was hard for me to know what i was supposed to do with those feelings, so i needed to put them somewhere.
Most of what i said shouldn't be taken seriously, as I was partly intentionally trying to garner a reaction. and i am sorry about that. i was genuinely not thinking of the impact it would have on others when i did it. i was just desperate for any form of social interaction at the time. i do, however, understand that i should have just left the topic alone in retrospect. and i would have, were i in my right mind at the time.
i probably won't ever get my account back regardless, but i might as well just apologize, as it could prevent me from going to hell. Besides, Etjen has threatened to report me to the police, so the best-case scenario right now is probably not getting fined or jailed. if he was actually serious about that and it wasn't just to deter me from making fifty more accounts, poor guy.
also why does this just straight up look like an apology written by adolf hitler
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