(Tw) No longer a tragedy (hopefully) - Forum

Anachronism
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Anachronism wrote:
😊

if you’ve been here for any length of time and know me at all, you will know vp is my personal, public diary in a sense.

you will also know I’ve had a rough go at life. I was raised by a prostitute addict mother, have a host of mental health challenges, used to be a drunk, used to abuse amphetamines, have had abusive boyfriends, have lost jobs, and have struggled financially.

for once in my tumultuous life I think it’s gonna be alright.

almost 3 months ago I thought taking my own life and being a victim of my circumstances was my only answer.

my suicidal thoughts are reducing, I have a possible job after four months of unemployment, I was finally honest about my intrusive thoughts and found out I have ocd which has been fucking empowering, and I don’t hate the ever loving shit out of myself anymore. It’s the first time in my life I have ever felt worthy and deserving of respect. What the hell you guys.

Life fucking sucks and I hate it but it’s also so beautiful.

for once I think I can be something more than just a tragedy who burdens people with my pain and is nothing but a fuck up

you guys

I think I got this

Anachronism
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Anachronism wrote:
I poured my heart out for nothing

Anachronism
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Anachronism wrote:
i kinda lapsed and slept in and blew off therapy and slept all fucking day and just feel like a loser and a failure and self-loathing all fucking over again

that little fucker in my brain who verbally bullies me came back again... it's basically this:

Bojack Horseman - Stupid Piece of sh*t - YouTube

but it's a whole new day.. still like fucking garbage and so much fear and dread and frustration and anger at my employment and financial situation but Imma persevere

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Rotte wrote:
I am rooting for you!