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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe took the half empty bottle and smashed it on the ground, the shattering sound causing between them both for a long while. he cupped her chin with his hand and shook his head. when he wanted to, he would find any way possible of getting his own decision made. "my girlfriend has a name, and it is lana. you both might not get along but have the decency to give her the name." he shook her head and held onto her for a while, stroking her hair down, sighing. "danny is an asshole, we both know that. you're worthy of a million dollars, el, you just can't see that right now." he let go of herand sighed, but headed after her, to make sure she was okay.

romany practically screeched as he picked her up, feeling like a child. "PUT ME DOWN! LET GO OF ME RYDER I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL KILL YOU!" it panicked her, getting this intimate, his hands around her as he lifted her. she kicked her legs and swung her arms but it was no use, he was 180lbs of muscle and she was barely anything. as soon as her head hit the pillow, she was almost asleep, and it was as if all of her demons left her, and she was the look of innocence. her head lulled to he side slightly, her body shivering from the lack of foo and large consumption of alcohol. but this was nothing unusual to either of them, now.

LoveIsALaserquest
World Famous

LoveIsALaserquest wrote:
"ZAN!" She yelled, folding her arms "Look what you did you fucking idiot!" she glared at him. "On right im sorry Lana. Perfect fucking Lana. I tried liking her xanthe but then she's trying to you away from me so I don't like her. I don't know why you even like her." She mumbled, sighing. He wouldn't need her soon, he would have Lana as his best friend and she would just be left on her own as usual. She dropped the bottle from her shaking hands and watched as it smashed on the floor as she slowly began to break, not caring that she was crying and would look weak she just couldn't do it anymore. She sat on the floor, forgetting the broken glass that was now poking sharply into her skin as she burst into tears "I'm worth nothing, everything all the guys, Lana, my parents and I bet even you when we fell out said is true. Im a worthless waste of space and no one needs or wants me." She cried as she pulled her knees up to her chest, not caring about the blood dripping from her cut legs.

Ryder sighed, she said that every time that this happened and she never did anything. He laid himself on the bed next to her and watched her, making sure she was alright. He hated seeing her like this, he hated that guys made her feel that bad that she has to go and drink. He wanted to help her but how do you help someone who doesn't want to help themselves? He pulled his top and jeans off and then made himself a bed on the floor and got himself comfy. He knew it was going to be a long night full of holding hair back and rubbing backs.

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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe was trying his very best not to lose his patience with her, he had coped a lot with this ad knew to never raise his voice at her - it just wouldn't help matters at all. he watched her, keeping his hands off her, listening to every word she said. and although he knew that lana didn't particularly like eleanor, he would never let that stop him from loving her. eleanor was is best friend and she always had been, and he would always be there no matter what. his heart began to broke as he watched her break down, and her scooped her up in his arms, kissing the top of her head, he walked her into her bedroom. "shhh shhh, it's all going to be okay, I promise." he cuddled her to him.

romany felt at peace when he was next to her, some kind of comfort that he was able to provide her with, just temporarily. but she was broken inside, and she hated the feeling. the feeling of not being wanted, the feeling that no guy would ever want her, not like this. she was disgusting, ugly, fat, slutty, all those things that people said about her, they had been pounded into her head so much. the next morning, she was awake for he seventh time, again throwing up the liquid contents of her stomach. she didn't eat a lot - it made it easier for her to get wasted, and so this hurt, a lot.

LoveIsALaserquest
World Famous

LoveIsALaserquest wrote:
Eleanor cried into his chest, needing the comfort that he was giving her but she just felt numb. "Its never going to be ok. I'm a drunken mess that no one gives a shit about. Everyone gives up on me and I'm going to die alone and have no one even care if I wasn't there." She cried "I don't know what I do wrong, I try so hard to be nice and normal and yet they cheat on me and break me and make hate myself even more than I already do and I don't understand why. What did I ever do wrong! Why can't I be perfect like Lana or every other girl in this fucking world!" she sobbed as she pulled herself away from him and buried her head in the pillows "Go zan, don't come back ok? You know at one point your going to give up on me so just do it now." She said as she looked over at him and then laid her head back down. Her head was spinning and she felt sick, she had never felt this bad in her life.

Ryder stood up when he heard her being sick. He picked her up and quickly carried her to the toilet so she could be sick into the toilet instead of the fooor. He rubbed her back and sighed a little, he hated seeing her like this. He picked her up again when she was done and got her some water and tablets before he sat her down on the bed "Take these lovely, hopefully they will make you feel a bit better." He said softly as he took a seat on the bed next to her. He wanted her to know he was there for her no matter what.

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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe let her just cry, he knew that she needed to get you to start making things better, for her to realise where things were going. "I care about you, eleanor, and I don't understand why you try to push me away.." he stood up when she pulled away but firmly stayed in the room, shoving his hands into his pockets. "you're perfect, eleanor, in your eleanor type of way. you're quirky and cheeky and sweet. you're not lana perfect. lana is shy and quiet and misunderstood." he ran a hand through his hair and went over to her, after a moment of silence. he rested a hand on her shoulder. "i'm not going anywhere, el." he whispered.

romany groaned, her stomach empty now, surely this couldn't go on for much longer, she thought. she winced at the feeling in her stomach, sitting back down on the edge of the bed, she put her head in her hands. "what are you even doing here?" she mumbled, taking the tablets and water, she swallowed them down. "I can look after myself you know, i'm a big girl, I don't need you constantly looking after me." she frowned and rested the glass of water down on the bedside table, and ran a hand through her hair. she got up and looked at herself in the mirror, groaning. "fuck.. i'm so hideous.." she mumbled, running her hands along her make up-less face.

LoveIsALaserquest
World Famous

LoveIsALaserquest wrote:
Eleanor sighed, sniffling ''I push you away because eventually your going to leave me like every other stupid fucking man does when you realise I'm to fucked to be fixed so I push you away so you will go and it will be because I wanted you to, not because you gave up. It will hurt less if you just go now. I don't want to be a burden to you any more zan.'' she d=said, glancing over at him. ''I'm obviously not perfect. If I was perfect someone would stay, someone would love me and not treat me like I'm the biggest pile of shit they have ever met. You know what I fucking hate men every single one of them is fucking stupid.'' she mumbled, probably not making much sense but her head was pounding and she didn't feel very good. ''You say that now but eventually you will leave like everyone else.'' she said and pulled the covers over her head just feeling hopeless. She didn't know what to do with herself any more, she had nothing to get up for to make someone proud of her. ''I'm just going to stay here for the rest of my life eating ice cream and watching those stupid lovey dovey movies.'' she said to herself.

Ryder sighed ''Roma I'm here because I care, because I actually want to make sure that your ok and haven't gotten into any trouble.'' he said, sighing softly. ''Your not hideous, your beautiful in every single way. I come to make sure your ok so you don't say things like that, because we both know what happens when your on your own. Come on, go get a shower while I make some breakfast yeah?'' he asked, pressing a kiss to the top of her head.

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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe let her have her moment, to get it all out. but then he climbed under the duvet with her, spooning her, his arms and legs around her so she couldn't resist it. he kissed the back of her head, frowning. "you don't realise how much potential you have. but drinking yourself to death and going off with any guy that will have you, that's not going to help. and I know that seems like a horrible thing for me to say but it' true. you're worth a lot more than that, and one day, an incredible guy will come along for you." he ran his fingertips up and down her arm slowly as he spoke. "we've been best friends for 15 years, el, i'm not just going to throw that away."

romany shook her head. "you don't care. not really, not any more. you pretend you do but you hate me, just like everyone else does." she shivered, looking down at the ground. sober romany and drunk romany were two very different people, it was fair to say that her self esteem was very little now. she shook her head as she looked up at him, with her big sad eyes, and hugged him for a little while. she didn't want to cry. only weak people cried. and she wasn't weak, never. you shouldn't care any more, not after what I put you through. you should just walk away, never come back. I don't deserve to have you." she hid her face in the crook of his neck.

LoveIsALaserquest
World Famous

LoveIsALaserquest wrote:
Eleanor sighed softly when he spooned her, actually loving the feeling of him holding her like that. ''The things is I've tried being myself for a guy, they don't want me. I try being what they want, they don't want me? what can I do? everyone I know is in a happy relationship and it makes me feel shit and the only thing I have when they are to busy to bother with me is alcohol. At least that can't leave me. Why can't have a guy like you? you treat Lana like a princess and you love each other. I want someone to love me like that '' she whispers, starting to cry again as she rested her head against his chest ''I don't understand why your still friends with me zan, all you do is look after me now and I'm an awful friends. I'm sorry.'' she said, wrapping her arms around him tightly ''Why did I end up like this?'' she whispers, she use to be happy and just wanted to have a good life but now she was just miserable.

Ryder knelt down in front of her ''I do car, I care more than you think. I have never hated you Roma and I never will, other people might but I don't and I never will.'' he said softly as he rested his finger under chin and titled it so she was looking at him ''Maybe I shouldn't but I do, I care a lot and it would kill me to walk away and leave you like this. You deserve to have me and I will be here even when you get angry at me and decide that you hate me. Your not getting rid of me.''

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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe listened to her, staying silent throughout it. he knew it was the best thing to do, they wouldn't get anywhere if he kept interrupting her. "you're young, el. you're only 18 for crying out loud, you don't need to be in love so young. it's not worth it, honestly. you should just enjoy your life, not care about anyone else. you should be the main priority." he smiled and shrugged, stroking her hair gently. "i'm friends with you because I fucking love you and I probably always will. now shush and go to sleep. you've had a long long evening and you're not well and you need to rest." he held her close.

romany pouted slightly and shook her head, her bottom lip trembling as she listened to him. she never understood why he stuck around, why he cared so much. "I don't get it. you have a girlfriend and a cat and the perfect life and you still bother with me. and I don't deserve you ryder, not at all." she began to cry, turning to face away from him. it had been a while since she last cried, it only ever happened when things in her head got really bad. "I don't want to get rid of you. anything but. but you're going to go eventually because you'll be married and stuff." she wiped her eyes, not wanting to face him now.

LoveIsALaserquest
World Famous

LoveIsALaserquest wrote:
Eleanor sighed ''Yeah but most people have had a first love at my age and well I'm just used and it's shit, I see how everyone else has that someone to take them on dates and have those cute moments with and I don't know, you've always had girlfriends so you probably don't understand.'' she said, sighing. She sighed when he said that he fucking loved her and she wished it was meant how she wanted it to be but she knew it never would be. ''Fine but go home ok, go be with Lana and be happy, I instead of being with the friend that just brings you down. I know I've caused problems between you both before and I'll make it easier for you by not seeing you any more. You know if it came down to it you would chose her. Don't think and care about me any more, I'm not worth it. I don't deserve someone as wonderful as you as a best friend. Goodbye zan.'' she said and wriggled out his arms and laid on the other side of the bed away from him and hugged herself as she closed her eyes. She wanted to stop being a problem for him.

Ryder sighed softly as he wiped her tears ''Roma I care so much because I love you, your my best friend and your part of my life, you always have been. You do deserve to have me.'' he whispers softly ''Even when I'm married I will still be there for you, you will be a part of my life forever like you have been for the last twenty years and you will be for the rest of my life. Even if you push me away I still will be your best friend.'' he said and pulled her into his arms. ''Don't cry.'' he whispers.

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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe shook his head and got out of the bed. why did she not understand how much she meant to him? the extent of his love for her? it upset him to see her like this, to see his best friend destroying herself. "eleanor, i'm going to go home now, so you can rest properly. but i'll be back n the morning, and i'll make you some breakfast and stuff, okay?" he went and kissed her forehead before walking out, putting his jacket back on, he headed back to his own place. sometimes, he knew that she just needed her space, and him constantly pushing her wasn't going to help.

romany shook her head. "but what about tia? you love her, and she's the most important part of your life now. she deserves your attention, not me." she wiped her eyes roughly and shook her head. "but you shouldn't be there for me, why don't you just go and enjoy yourself instead of having to baby me? i'll sort myself out and i'll do what needs to be done." she took a deep breath and looked up at him. "i'm going to shower and stuff.. yeah.." she couldn't deal with being that close to him, it just broke her heart. she grabbed a towel from the radiator and headed into the bathroom.

LoveIsALaserquest
World Famous

LoveIsALaserquest wrote:
Eleanor sighed as she sat up and watched him leave. It made her feel even more alone. She didn't want to push him away but she didn't know what else to do. She hated being this close with him but not being able to be with him how she wanted to be, she finally realised she loved him when he told her about Lana and how he loved her=. Know she didn't know how to be around him so she just pushed him away and then went back to her stupid attempts at a relationship and when that failed she found anyone who was willing to take her. After he had gone she cried until she fell to sleep form exhaustion. The next morning she woke up looking like hell. She grabbed her duvet and pillow and headed to the living room. She laid down on the sofa, wrapping the duvet around herself as she turned the tv on, looking for some films she could watch and wish she could be the gorgeous actresses in the films.

Ryder sighed softly ''Roma I love tia and she is an important part of my life but so are you and you have been for longer than she has. What kind of friend would I be if I dropped you because of her? she does have my attention as well, both of you do.'' he said softly ''I do this because I want to not because I have to. I want to make sure your ok, I can't rest unless I know your alright.'' he said, standing up ''Ok I'll make breakfast for when your done.'' he said and went to the kitchen.

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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe was awake eary and bright the next morning. he quickly showered, and waved lana of as she went to work. he got dressed in some plain skinny jeans with a decent t-shirt with his converse. he ruffled his hair up and then grabbed his denim jacket. walking out and heading over to eleanor's place, he stopped off at the little café on the corner and fetched her a bagel and some fresh orange juice, before walking up the stairs and going into the apartment. he went into the living room, smiling when he saw her. "told you i'd be back. feeling a little less drunk now, miss?"

romany wiped her eyes dry once she was in the bathroom, locking the door. trying to gain some kind of control on herself. but she'd convince ryder that she was finally she always would, and then she'd go and and do the same thing again and again. she quickly washed herself off, wincing at the feel of the bruises on her arms. she frowned, washing her hair out, nd then put a towel around her body. she went back to her room and got dressed, pulling on some acid wash skinny jeans and a tiny little black crop top. she tied her hair up, did her make up, then went to the kitchen.

LoveIsALaserquest
World Famous

LoveIsALaserquest wrote:
Eleanor looked up and couldn't help smiling a little ''And I thought I told you to piss off. You never do do what your told do you?'' she asked, smiling a little bit. ''Nope not drunk.'' she said as she stood up ''You know what you are going to be a brilliant best friend help me sort myself out, I need to stop drinking, buy some less skimpy clothes and get a better job. I want you to be proud of me instead of disappointed in me.'' she said. This morning she felt a lot better than she had the night before, she realised that she was going to try and make him realise that she could be just as good as Lana and if he still didn't see her as anything more than friend then she was going to forget she ever loved him and move on. ''Thank you for last night I know I'm a massive pain in your ass but you helped me a lot, I need to sort myself out. I don't know why I try to push you away I mean we have been friends since I was bloody three. Thank you for not giving up on me.'' she said as she threw her arms around him and gave him a big hug. ''You said you would bring breakfast last night, what did you bring?'' she asked, smiling up at him.

Ryder walked into her kitchen and looked through the cupboards for something he could make her for breakfast. He made some chocolate chip pancakes with a home made chocolate milkshake to drink. He put them on the table all nice for her with a flower and everything. He wanted to be there for her, she had been there for him when he needed it so he wanted to do the same for her.

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ThugWorkout wrote:
xanthe smiled. "you don't have to change yourself completely, el. just make better life choices. you can still go round in those funny little cute skirts you wear and flirt with all the boys. but just make sure you're okay in here." he kissed the top of her head as he said it, and then grinned, nodding. "just using me for my food? wow, I see how it is." he passed her the brown paper bag and bottle of juice. "there we go, enjoy yourself." he kicked off his converse and leaned back comfortably, his arms along the back of the sofa they were sat on.

romany smiled a little when she saw the breakfast. "you're the sweetest guy ever, ryder. tia's lucky to have you." she smiled and sat at the table, acting as if nothing was wrong. she had to, for the sake of getting ryder off her back. she began eating slowly, though the thought of it was making her sick. all those calories, all that fat and sugar.. she cut it up piece by piece and nibbled on it, taking sips of the milkshake now and again. "what're you up to today anyway?" she asked him politely, putting her knife and fork down once she'd had enough.

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