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Horcrux wrote:
Charlotte couldn't believe that he was dragging ray into this all over again, as if she could control how someone else felt about her. "My best friend is meant to be YOU Henry I thought you knew that." she just rolled her eyes and looked away from him, "I can't control the way my only other friend here feels about me but you sure as hell can control where your dick goes." and with that she moved passed him to leave the bathroom and went into their bedroom so she could get changed.

Ryan heard the front door unlock and he took a deep breath, he wanted to see Mila so badly just to give her a hug of relief for the time he's had over the last twenty four hours but then he remembered how badly things were left on their phonecall. He knew he had to be the bigger man so he took another few calming breaths before going down the stairs and meeting her in the hallway, "hey.. I'm glad your home I wanted to talk about the way we left things earlier, on the phone"

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How couldn't Henry not bring ray up when he seemed to be in the centre of any problems they had? It was a cheap blownyet again but it was just how he felt. "I know I am but you don't act like it very often." He let out a very frustrated sigh when she pushed passed him and he closed his eyes tightly, walking out the bathroom and slamming the door after him, he went into the bedroom. "This isn't ever gonna work out, is it? You're never going to forgive me." He admitted, his arms crossed over his chest. Maybe this just wasn't meant to work out and the thought made him sad.

Mila was just stood there, she didn't really feel comfortable being there even though it was her house as well now, she felt like an intruder. She rubbed at her eyes hardness before he came down the stairs, kicking her boots off and hanging her jacket and bag up. "No.. it's okay, I get it Ryan. You have a family now.. I.. I dunno, this just can't be a thing any more can it?" She motioned between the two of them. She had a big braveface on but inside she was crumbling, she really had worked herself into believing he'd had enough of her.

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Charlotte was so close to snapping but she really didn't want to, the last thing she needed was for them to have a massive argument with Robbie in the room next door but as Henry slammed the door it was like a fire had been ignited in her. Turning around to look at him she scoffed, "It's been a few days and you expect me to just shrug it off, you cheated on me Henry. You broke the trust that we were suppose to have and now you are getting angry at me for not feeling all loved up and perfect." She looked down at the ring on her finger before sliding it off and handing it back to him, "If you don't even think it's going to work there's no point in me having this."

Ryan hadn't expected those words to leave her mouth and he felt like his whole world had started to spin like crazy, "Are you seriously breaking up with me Mila? You've known since the moment I found out about Kelly being pregnant yet you stuck by me. What's changed that all of a sudden now it doesn't work? Is it because I don't want to be an asshole and abandon my child?" he ran his hand through his hair, trying not to show how upset he was but the reality was that he was near crying which was very rare for him.

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Henry was hoping she'd put a little fight into it. It when she ha dead that ring I've,f it was like his whole world came crashing down and he squeezed it tight, his knuckles turning white and he closed his eyes. "Because I don't know how to act.. one minute it's as if we are okay and then you freak out at me? You're giving me whiplash Charlotte and I don't know how many more times you want me to be sorry, because I am, I'm so sorry that I betrayed that trust. But I don't even know where to begin because you're not helping me." He sat in his side of the bed, playing with the ring.

Mila lifted her head and looked at him, a little confused. "I thought you were breaking up with me? I thought that's what this whole thing was, why you'd come home." She shrugged her shoulders, feeling very stupid but she wasn't gonna back down that easily, there was far too much going on for her to admit she was in the wrong right now. "Because you want a family. And I don't want you to give up your baby.. but I don't think I can be that person for you, and that's why." She was getting a little flustered, she loved Ryan so much and so much was going on in her brain, she began to feel light headed and grasped onto the radiator next to her.

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Charlotte could barely look at him now, she had regretted taking the ring off almost straight but there was no going back now the damage had been done. "It's not about you having to apologise a hundred and one times! It's about me trying to get passed this mentally. You know exactly how I handle things, I've always been this way. I want to love you and I want things to be normal but it's just not that easy.:" she was still standing, not entirely sure what to do with herself now and she wished she could vanish into thin air.

Ryan felt like he had just hit a wall when she spoke, "Me? Breaking up with you.. god no Mila I fucking love you." he said with a small laugh of relief before listening to her continue to speak and his heart felt like it was getting crushed all over again. "I wish you would have told me sooner that you wouldn't want to be with me if I had a child Mila.. I really wish you had." he ran his hand through his hair again before rubbing his face as he leaned against the wall. "Kelly knows I'm not interested in being with her but I will fight to be able to see my baby girl and make sure I can be an active part in her childhood."

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Henry didn't know where they stood anynmore, whether she wanted to continue this or whether him fighting was for no good reason at all. "Well inwant you to love me too but it doesn't seem that way any more. Maybe.. maybe we should take a break or something." He said it quietly, he didn't want it to happen, he didn't want them to be apart ever but maybe they needed a cooling off period so they could both think things over. He'd rushed into this far too fast and it had only made it more complicated. "I can go and stay at a hotel or something for a couple of nights, I don't know." He ruffled his hair around.

Mila frowned over at him. "You do? Because it hasn't felt like it lately, Ryan." She admitted. She knew he was busy with his job and he was going to be even busier now that he had a baby too. There's be no time for her and she felt selfish. "I didn't want to believe that it was going to be your baby.. I was always hoping it would have been that other guys and I could just have you to myself." She admitted, fiddling with the sleeves in her top, she couldn't meet his eyes any more. "I guess I'm too dumb and immature to know how it feels."

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Charlotte hadn't expected him to suggest they go on a break and it almost floored her but was it such a bad idea? At least that way she would have time to clear her head and actually process what happened properly without feeling like the was on an emotional rollercoaster, "is that what you want to do..?" she asked, lifting her head to look over at him. This was the only man that had ever meant anything in her life, other than her little brother of course, and the thought of losing him terrified her, "what if you decide you don't want to come back.." she whispered, more to herself than to anyone.

Ryan raised his brow slightly, "Me? You're the one that ended up making plans to go out drinking two nights ago with work mates and miss our date night. I've been trying hard to keep a good balance between work life and our life.. you never said it wasn't good enough." he let out a sigh, he had hoped for the same thing but after seeing the kid.. he just knew. "I understand.. I felt the same way for a little while but when I held her I just knew, though I've still pushed for a test to be done to determine if I am the father." Looking over at Mila he knew he was losing her, "if you want to leave me I understand but just know I love you Mila, so damn much."

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Henry didn't think she'd agree to the idea but it could have been exactly what they both needed, sometime to gain a little clarity on their relationship. "It's not what I want to do, what I want to do is make love to you and show you how much I love you." He shrugged, sitting up a little more he placed the ring down on his beside cabinet. She was still doubting him and he frowned, getting up and going and standing in front of her. "I'm gonna wait for as long as it takes for you to love me again, Charlotte. As soon as you want me, I'll come running."

Mila frowned. "Why are you still mad about that Ryan? You said you were okay with it, and we were gonna go on a date tomorrow instead. I guess that's out the window too isn't it?" She could feel her fists clenching. "And I get that Ryan, I don't want you to abandon your daughter for god sake, I'm not that selfish. I just don't know if I can can deal with that." She moved to sit in the stairs and put her head in her hands, feeling the hot tears dribble down her cheeks again. "I love you too but I just don't think I'm what you want any more." She was full crying now.

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Charlotte didn't want to agree to being apart but maybe he was right, maybe this is what they needed to do to end up being closer. As he spoke she could feel tears fill her eyes again but she fought to push them away, "maybe the time apart would be good.. for both of us. I want to be all the things you want me to be but I just.. I need time." she admitted, watching as he stood up she slipped her hands into his, "I'll always love you Henry," and now the tears were falling down her cheeks again.

Ryan felt like he couldn't ever say the right thing, "I'm NOT but you said I wasn't putting effort in which is complete bullshit, I'm over here trying and you just keep picking other things over me. I can only try so hard.{" he was feeling exhausted and this argument was going round in circles. "Well maybe you need to figure out what you can deal with. and don't you dare put this on what I want, I want you. I've always wanted you. I've made that clear our entire relationship. You are the one that doesn't know what you want." he said, and it took some restrain not to go over and cuddle her and stop her from crying but it wouldn't make this argument any easier.

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He never thought it would come to this, Henry always believed their relationship was the stiengest it could ever be but he'd fucked that up. "It'll give yountime to think, I want you to be happy, Charlotte, and whatever that is, I'll let it be." He took her hand and pulled her into his chest, holding her tightly so that she could cry. He wasn't going to kiss her, that wouldn't have been right, but he couldn't bare to see her crying like that, and he was the reason for it anyway. "I love you too baby, you know that." He sighed quietly, resting his chin on top of her head.

Mila couldn't pull herself together any more, her mind was like a tornado and it was working at three thousand miles an hour. She didn't know if it was just the guilt that was eating her up either, or if this was how she was actually feeling, either way, she had a feeling Ryan was falling more and more out of love with her the more she spoke. "I keep picking things over you? I left my family home, I turned down the chance to go to oxford and I live with you, is that not enough?" She wiped her tears away angrily, she could feel that rage again.

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Charlotte wished she could turn back time and realise the effect that Ray was having on Henry sooner and somehow proved to him in advance that nothing was going on, that way he never would have cheated and this mess wouldn't exist. It was all her fault. She wrapped her arms around him as the tears came streaming down and she nodded her head against his chest, "we will get through this, I know we will" she mumbled against him, "I love you too." and after a few more minutes of just holding each other they pulled apart.

Ryan just laughed, shaking his head, "You left your home because you hated it there, you didn't go to Oxford because that wasn't what you wanted to do. If it's so hard to live with me then why don't you find your own place to live." he moved away from the wall, clearly now exhausted and done with arguing, "clearly you aren't happy being with me so what's the point in arguing about it anymore? I'll sleep in the spare room tonight. If you change your mind about meeting Grace, that's my kids name by the way since you never asked, let me know." and with that he walked past her and up the stairs.

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Henry strokednher hairngently, letting his fingers tangle into the ends of it while he soothed her, sighing deeply when when she finally pulled away and he rubbed his eyes. This wasn't the time for him to cry, this wasnthe time for him to be brave and put in a strong face. "I'll go tonight.. it'll make it easier." He nodded, grabbing a duffle bag from the top of the wardrobe, he started shoving his essentials into it, mainly all his work uniform and then some lounging clothes, and his toiletries too. "Just.. tell Robbie I'm busy with work for a while or something."

Mila hated how he was always right, how he managed to stay calm, but then again he was an adult and their age difference was just making the crack between them bigger and bigge,r and she felt feeble and stupid. But when he told her to find somewhere else to live, it was like a nail to the chest and it was a sharp stabbing pain in her heart, and the angry tears turned into sobbing as she began to panic. "Ryan please, please don't make me move out.. I love you, please.." she ran up the stairs, practically begging him.

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Charlotte watched as he went to pack a bag and she didn't know what to say or do but she sank down onto the edge of the bed as she watched. She could beg him not to go, say she's changed her mind and wants him to stay but nothing seemed right, perhaps that was because she knew deep down that him going away for a few days was what they needed. "yeah of course I won't tell him that anythings up, but you might need to bring him home a sweetie or something when you get back." she said with a weak laugh as more tears streamed down her face.

Ryan was up the stairs and along the corridor when Mila came running up after him and he could tell from the way her voice cracked that she wasn't about to start yelling at him. As he turned around to face her there was a few tears rolling down his cheeks and he moved over to her and pulled her into his arms for a tight hug, "I love you too princess .. but if you are this unhappy then I don't want you to feel tied down to me or this place or anything. All I've ever wanted was for you to be happy."

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Henry made sure he had everything, he could always nip back if he'd forgotten anything this was still his hope, he was just temporarily leaving it so that he could fix his relationship, hopefully. "Oh man I think it might take him more than sweeties to persuade him to love me again." He pulled the towe off and chucked it on the bed, and then pulled on some jogging bottoms and a tshirt, grabbing his grey hoody and chucking that in too, he ruffled his hair around. He was putting on a brave face for her sake. He went and knelt down in front of her. "This is gonna be okay, I promise." He cupped her face and kissed her once, and then stood up, chucking the bag over his shoulder.

Mila couldn't even imagine her life without Ryan in it but right now that was a big possibility and it was causing her to begin breathing a little unnaturally, she closed her eyes. This wasn't anger, this was.. anxiety? Fear? Something Mila didn't get too often but when it hit her the wave was so ginormous it made her sick. She let her body collapse against his and the few tears turned into buckets as she sobbed. "Please don't make me leave you, Ryan.." she repeated, grasping onto him as tight as she could. She really was an ugly crier but she didn't care. "You make me happy, it's you.. it's you I want okay." She frowned, grasping onto his tshirt.

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Charlotte knew that not seeing Henry around was going to upset Robbie but she didn't have any other choice, she was doing this to help their relationship and Robbie was too young to understand that right now. "that boy will always love you don't be silly," she said, trying to put on a brave face as the tears finally seemed to stop. Before he pulled the bag over his shoulder she gave him a kiss, a passionate one with a lot of emotion underneath the surface, "We are going to be okay." she repeated, and she followed him out of the room and towards the front door, "I'll see you real soon okay? I love you." and the next minute he was gone and the tears were back.

Ryan held her close against him, he could feel her chest moving as she took in gasps of air and he didn't want to let her go. "I'm not making you go Mila and I certainly don't want you to go, I want you here with me but I want you to be happy." He pulled away a little so that he could look down at her and see her face properly. Lifting his hand up to her cheeks he wiped away the tears that were streaming down, as well as some of her smudging mascara, "I want you" he whispered back to her, giving her a small smile as he tried to wipe away her tears, "gosh look at us.. why are we hurting each other when we love each other so much."

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