Solar wrote:Doll wrote:
you're right to say that i am preventing myself from facing the inevitable hurt and moving on
i am just so scared
i am genuinely dealing with so much shit in my life right now regarding my mental health that this was like the final blow to legitimately make me more miserable than i have ever ever ever been
i genuinely do not know how to move past this i am terrified of moving on i am terrified of not moving on i am terrified of everything
i wish so much i could just go on and block him myself but the thought of that makes me want to throw up especially with ocd constantly telling me ok but what if he wanted to actually leave that door open
i feel paralyzed and numb and i just want it all to end
and don't worry you are not overstepping at all i appreciate any and all advice, i am sorry if i sound stubborn or stupid
nooo i get it its a tough situation to be in even without other things on your mind, i can understand it's even more hard when also managing mental health issues & havng a lot on ur plate!!!
just remember to be kind to urself and take ur time. sometimes being kind to yourself also means letting go of stuff, but i fully understand its super super tough rn
maybe meeting up with friends, getting out of the house can help a bit as well

i appreciate you solar thank you for your comments throughout the day because it was a very emotionally.loaded day for me and i needed it 😭