Anachronism wrote:
😊
if you’ve been here for any length of time and know me at all, you will know vp is my personal, public diary in a sense.
you will also know I’ve had a rough go at life. I was raised by a prostitute addict mother, have a host of mental health challenges, used to be a drunk, used to abuse amphetamines, have had abusive boyfriends, have lost jobs, and have struggled financially.
for once in my tumultuous life I think it’s gonna be alright.
almost 3 months ago I thought taking my own life and being a victim of my circumstances was my only answer.
my suicidal thoughts are reducing, I have a possible job after four months of unemployment, I was finally honest about my intrusive thoughts and found out I have ocd which has been fucking empowering, and I don’t hate the ever loving shit out of myself anymore. It’s the first time in my life I have ever felt worthy and deserving of respect. What the hell you guys.
Life fucking sucks and I hate it but it’s also so beautiful.
for once I think I can be something more than just a tragedy who burdens people with my pain and is nothing but a fuck up
you guys
I think I got this
😊
if you’ve been here for any length of time and know me at all, you will know vp is my personal, public diary in a sense.
you will also know I’ve had a rough go at life. I was raised by a prostitute addict mother, have a host of mental health challenges, used to be a drunk, used to abuse amphetamines, have had abusive boyfriends, have lost jobs, and have struggled financially.
for once in my tumultuous life I think it’s gonna be alright.
almost 3 months ago I thought taking my own life and being a victim of my circumstances was my only answer.
my suicidal thoughts are reducing, I have a possible job after four months of unemployment, I was finally honest about my intrusive thoughts and found out I have ocd which has been fucking empowering, and I don’t hate the ever loving shit out of myself anymore. It’s the first time in my life I have ever felt worthy and deserving of respect. What the hell you guys.
Life fucking sucks and I hate it but it’s also so beautiful.
for once I think I can be something more than just a tragedy who burdens people with my pain and is nothing but a fuck up
you guys
I think I got this