fujiwara wrote:
ive explained about this a little to friends on vp already. but i have old american / canadian friend group that all removed me as a friend and cut all communications with me a year ago. my main friend is an american girl in that group, a secondary friend being a canadian girl. the rest of the group weren't exactly my friend, but friends of theirs.
they cut ties with me because i couldnt control my mental instability and i would put blame and guilt onto my friends. AKA i would say stupid stuff like "no one ever wants to play games with me / no one is ever online to talk to" when all i had to do was reach out and ask one of the people in the friend group. they did try to help me but i pushed the bar and upset my main friend, 'E'.
wheh we broke ties, she was kind enough to give me an explanation as to why they are breaking me off, and told me how i hurt them. ive reflected on my words and actions, made changes in my life for a greater impact and push myself to be better.
i always think about reaching out to E, my main friend. its been a year, and i think i can prove my changes and i am ready to rebuild a friendship if she allows that. i just have a lot of trouble forming a message.
we share a discord server which originally was for us to post our respective servers invite links and other useful information. also a place she would post cooking recipes for me, or give me medical (or any type of life aspect) advice.
i was going to tag her in this server - because i have no other form of reaching out without clicking thru this server and private messaging her - and say "hey, i wondered if you wanted to rebuild our friendship if you are ready? i feel ive made some personal changes from where we left off. im sorry"
would that be a good message to send? any advice on what to say and how to fix this, i'd appreciate. or simply, should i try to move on?...