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LexiLuvsKirby
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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
I know personal threads aren't really a thing anymore and they're lame but I feel like having a space to just talk about things would be cool for me
Feel free to talk to me or don't you probably won't I'm boring af

LexiLuvsKirby
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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
I feel so sick all the time lately idk must be the meds or whatever

LexiLuvsKirby
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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Does anyone else feel like your worth diminishes with each bit of weight gained? That's how I feel about myself at least

Solar
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Solar wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Does anyone else feel like your worth diminishes with each bit of weight gained? That's how I feel about myself at least

i also struggle w this, like not my complete worth maybe but i do feel better about myself and how people would perceive me the skinnier i am

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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Vent time!!!
This anxiety is killing me and i don't know it feels like I'm trapped in my body. It hurts to look down at your body or in the mirror and be disgusted. It feels like a beautiful soul trapped in a monstrous body and it gets me down every day. I also feel trapped in my own mind and I'm being consumed by it. I want to do well and succeed in life and i just can't. I can't find motivation I can't find a reason to wake up beside the fact that my body doesn't let me sleep so I just wander aimlessly around at 5 am but no reason to be up.

And the only drug that has helped with this feeling has been weed and I have none until tomorrow and my edibles come in thru the mail.
If anyone is thinking about trying weed for anxiety I'd advise you to only do it once or twice a week. Im entirely too depend on it and they say you can't get addicted but YOU CAN I know because I'm struggling to go without and it's only been a few hours since my pen ran out😭 you may not get withdrawal but it's TOUGH when the only relief you can find is gone
I feel guilt about that too bc I am a Christian and I know I shouldn't depend on things that aren't God but I guess what is the difference between weed and the pills I have to take every day 🤔

I feel worthless and helpless today. Just rotting away with a stuffed nose because I've been crying all day and I haven't eaten since like 11 (it's 5:45 so I need to make dinner) but am I even hungry? Idk

I wish I could talk to SOMEONE but I've already been bitching about it to my husband and I'm sure he'd like a break
I wish I had a friend in the world but no one talks to me unless they want something from me (borrow money, weed, do chores, help move help this help that take take take) and I guess I get why but it still makes me feel unwanted and depressed.
Anyway I guess that's it

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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Right after I typed that my neighbor asked for a hit off my pen lol no hi how are ya

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Azriel wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Vent time!!!
This anxiety is killing me and i don't know it feels like I'm trapped in my body. It hurts to look down at your body or in the mirror and be disgusted. It feels like a beautiful soul trapped in a monstrous body and it gets me down every day. I also feel trapped in my own mind and I'm being consumed by it. I want to do well and succeed in life and i just can't. I can't find motivation I can't find a reason to wake up beside the fact that my body doesn't let me sleep so I just wander aimlessly around at 5 am but no reason to be up.

And the only drug that has helped with this feeling has been weed and I have none until tomorrow and my edibles come in thru the mail.
If anyone is thinking about trying weed for anxiety I'd advise you to only do it once or twice a week. Im entirely too depend on it and they say you can't get addicted but YOU CAN I know because I'm struggling to go without and it's only been a few hours since my pen ran out😭 you may not get withdrawal but it's TOUGH when the only relief you can find is gone
I feel guilt about that too bc I am a Christian and I know I shouldn't depend on things that aren't God but I guess what is the difference between weed and the pills I have to take every day 🤔

I feel worthless and helpless today. Just rotting away with a stuffed nose because I've been crying all day and I haven't eaten since like 11 (it's 5:45 so I need to make dinner) but am I even hungry? Idk

I wish I could talk to SOMEONE but I've already been bitching about it to my husband and I'm sure he'd like a break
I wish I had a friend in the world but no one talks to me unless they want something from me (borrow money, weed, do chores, help move help this help that take take take) and I guess I get why but it still makes me feel unwanted and depressed.
Anyway I guess that's it

you can definitely get addicted to weed yeah i used to smoke a lot with my friend and i stopped easily but my friend rly struggled with it .. it ended up giving him issues with his eyesight so then he finally quit

LexiLuvsKirby
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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:

Azriel wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Vent time!!!
This anxiety is killing me and i don't know it feels like I'm trapped in my body. It hurts to look down at your body or in the mirror and be disgusted. It feels like a beautiful soul trapped in a monstrous body and it gets me down every day. I also feel trapped in my own mind and I'm being consumed by it. I want to do well and succeed in life and i just can't. I can't find motivation I can't find a reason to wake up beside the fact that my body doesn't let me sleep so I just wander aimlessly around at 5 am but no reason to be up.

And the only drug that has helped with this feeling has been weed and I have none until tomorrow and my edibles come in thru the mail.
If anyone is thinking about trying weed for anxiety I'd advise you to only do it once or twice a week. Im entirely too depend on it and they say you can't get addicted but YOU CAN I know because I'm struggling to go without and it's only been a few hours since my pen ran out😭 you may not get withdrawal but it's TOUGH when the only relief you can find is gone
I feel guilt about that too bc I am a Christian and I know I shouldn't depend on things that aren't God but I guess what is the difference between weed and the pills I have to take every day 🤔

I feel worthless and helpless today. Just rotting away with a stuffed nose because I've been crying all day and I haven't eaten since like 11 (it's 5:45 so I need to make dinner) but am I even hungry? Idk

I wish I could talk to SOMEONE but I've already been bitching about it to my husband and I'm sure he'd like a break
I wish I had a friend in the world but no one talks to me unless they want something from me (borrow money, weed, do chores, help move help this help that take take take) and I guess I get why but it still makes me feel unwanted and depressed.
Anyway I guess that's it

you can definitely get addicted to weed yeah i used to smoke a lot with my friend and i stopped easily but my friend rly struggled with it .. it ended up giving him issues with his eyesight so then he finally quit

Wait what happened to his eyesight I need answers

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Azriel wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:

Azriel wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Vent time!!!
This anxiety is killing me and i don't know it feels like I'm trapped in my body. It hurts to look down at your body or in the mirror and be disgusted. It feels like a beautiful soul trapped in a monstrous body and it gets me down every day. I also feel trapped in my own mind and I'm being consumed by it. I want to do well and succeed in life and i just can't. I can't find motivation I can't find a reason to wake up beside the fact that my body doesn't let me sleep so I just wander aimlessly around at 5 am but no reason to be up.

And the only drug that has helped with this feeling has been weed and I have none until tomorrow and my edibles come in thru the mail.
If anyone is thinking about trying weed for anxiety I'd advise you to only do it once or twice a week. Im entirely too depend on it and they say you can't get addicted but YOU CAN I know because I'm struggling to go without and it's only been a few hours since my pen ran out😭 you may not get withdrawal but it's TOUGH when the only relief you can find is gone
I feel guilt about that too bc I am a Christian and I know I shouldn't depend on things that aren't God but I guess what is the difference between weed and the pills I have to take every day 🤔

I feel worthless and helpless today. Just rotting away with a stuffed nose because I've been crying all day and I haven't eaten since like 11 (it's 5:45 so I need to make dinner) but am I even hungry? Idk

I wish I could talk to SOMEONE but I've already been bitching about it to my husband and I'm sure he'd like a break
I wish I had a friend in the world but no one talks to me unless they want something from me (borrow money, weed, do chores, help move help this help that take take take) and I guess I get why but it still makes me feel unwanted and depressed.
Anyway I guess that's it

you can definitely get addicted to weed yeah i used to smoke a lot with my friend and i stopped easily but my friend rly struggled with it .. it ended up giving him issues with his eyesight so then he finally quit

Wait what happened to his eyesight I need answers

idk he started seeing this white haze or smth and the doctors kept telling him his eyes were fine and then he went to the doctor in his home country and they were like yea bro its the weed

im not sure if his eyesight returned to normal or if its permanent

LexiLuvsKirby
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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:

Azriel wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:

Azriel wrote:
you can definitely get addicted to weed yeah i used to smoke a lot with my friend and i stopped easily but my friend rly struggled with it .. it ended up giving him issues with his eyesight so then he finally quit

Wait what happened to his eyesight I need answers

idk he started seeing this white haze or smth and the doctors kept telling him his eyes were fine and then he went to the doctor in his home country and they were like yea bro its the weed

im not sure if his eyesight returned to normal or if its permanent

Huh don't think I've heard of that
I sometimes get optical migraines tho but I haven't had any since I've been using weed but that could just be a coincidence. everyone is different and ill keep in mind to get off the stuff if I notice changes in eyesight

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Maxwell wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:

Azriel wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:
Wait what happened to his eyesight I need answers

idk he started seeing this white haze or smth and the doctors kept telling him his eyes were fine and then he went to the doctor in his home country and they were like yea bro its the weed

im not sure if his eyesight returned to normal or if its permanent

Huh don't think I've heard of that
I sometimes get optical migraines tho but I haven't had any since I've been using weed but that could just be a coincidence. everyone is different and ill keep in mind to get off the stuff if I notice changes in eyesight

I feel like if u notice changes in eyesight it might b too late :cry

LexiLuvsKirby
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LexiLuvsKirby wrote:

Maxwell wrote:

LexiLuvsKirby wrote:

Azriel wrote:
idk he started seeing this white haze or smth and the doctors kept telling him his eyes were fine and then he went to the doctor in his home country and they were like yea bro its the weed

im not sure if his eyesight returned to normal or if its permanent

Huh don't think I've heard of that
I sometimes get optical migraines tho but I haven't had any since I've been using weed but that could just be a coincidence. everyone is different and ill keep in mind to get off the stuff if I notice changes in eyesight

I feel like if u notice changes in eyesight it might b too late

Lol maybe but I already can barely see😔