ok hi so this will be my, idk man like vent thing where i just let it out and whine abt stuff



tuesday 6/6



im taking my iud tomorrow (FINALLY) and im so anxious abt the pain bc im so sensitive to pain and it hurt like a motherfucking bitch to put it in so now im just :-) im SO AFRAID i just :------) i hate that i over analyze everything ever like i may have to take the bus there tomorrow and wait for my mom to be there but like ??? what if the bus doesnt come and what if i miss the bus and what if something goes wrong like im in so much pain in the morning i cant take the bus???????

gotta love having crippling fucking anxiety 



update 

im currently crying bc im so anxious abt this i just want it to be painfree and be quick so i can get the iud out becasue it ruined me and my life and i just im so anxious
i know it will not be painfree and it might take a lil longer if its in a weird position so that they cant just pull it out

i hATE THIS so much i hate my anxiety so much

update at 8.37 pm

iTS YA BOI BACK WITH THE FUCKING DYSPHORIA AND QUESTIONNG OF HIS SEXUALITY WOOOHOOOOO ITS GONNA BE A WILD FUCKING NIGHT LADS