ReportI'm getting impatient.. |
My due date was yesterday, and I obviously haven't given birth yet. Its not uncommon that first time moms go over due date, but I really hate it. I hate not knowing when things are going to happen. I hate having to stay in this waiting position, not knowing what or when, or having a lot of room to plan anything that takes too long. I can't travel to far, and there isn't a lot of things going on down town. Also, my body tires really fast, so I'm not really in the mood for long walks either.
For some reason it makes me somewhat sad that he hasn't come out yet... Not sure why (probably hormones?). I generally feel really bummed out these days. My selfasteem hits rock bottom every now and then, and I feel like a terrible person for some reason. And it doesn't really benefit me birth wise, as I need oxytoxin to encourage labour. I need love! And lots of it! Not stress and sadness. I should lay off the internet for a while, just to avoid all the negativity that usually follows, but the thing is I really don't know what else to entertain myself with with all this waiting. I've already been doing a ton of practical stuff, painting some paintings, doing small DIY projects, cleaning up the apartment and so on... I'm running out of things to do.
Anyway, they only let you go 12 days over due date before inducing, but I hope he gets ready before that. Its a long wait, I've already waited 9 months now ....
Just get out already! |