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ur hot u break out omggggg

but yea this isnt anything u should be embarrassed abt n it honestly great that uve managed on ur own for so long??? but if u feel like talking to someone might be worth trying out, i think u should consider it. like its never wrong to ask for a bit of help
as to how u would approach getting an appointment tho, im not really much help : /

lmao i didnt remember the lyrics

yea i think i wanna try it but im also like whatever right
but im seeing a nurse at the same place on monday so i think ill try to be like, lol i never called back abt something etc etc. maybe even tell the truth idk. she can think im dumb n weird i much rather embarrass myself irl than on phone lmao

thats a good idea, it’s also much easier to be taken seriously irl

i hope its not too weird lol, i feel like id be so annoying but thats ok i guess, i bet they have more annoying patients than that i cant be the worst right..

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also im trying to not be embarrassed abt this bc everyone on vp's got anxieties i hear

lol i dreamd that MissLondon wrote in this thread like, "ur right abt that one" quoting this n i was so sure id see her comment in here when i scrolled down lol

also i thought im the only 1 who has vp dreams i’m not alone😌😌

i have them pretty often lol
semi recently i dreamt snus payed 100 euro just to be able to access american news im like bro

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--- already sorry for the rant. idk if it was helpful at all or just me babbling --
Honestly, I'm about to quit my sessions tomorrow because I got the ultimatum that I now need to want to take active action (alas exposure therapy for my social anxiety) which I'm not really interested in, and know what I want to do further w\ the therapy (which I don't and I don't see much help in exposure therapy that I'm not already doing on my own as I'm like a good deal functioning at this point. ) As well, do these sessions just give me extra stress on my to-do list and guilt b\c my dad drives me, and it hasn't really done me much tbh. I never really had trust in therapy from the start tho, and it's not like I'm cured and I can deal with "every possible" situation but that wasn't my reality when I was 'healthy' either. Like I'd rather run my own run, you know. That's just how I work and prefer. I'd rather see myself opening up to people that I know than strangers -- when things feel safe for me to do so. And even though you're supposed to trust this person, I don't, and I don't know why someone assumes me to do that after having met a person like 8 times. I mean, I've told you some of my darkest experiences but this isn't trust.

I don't know.
Exposure therapy isn't what I want even though my "perfection complexes" will guilt me for quitting because now I'm a coward who quits. I also probably have a fear of authorities and well, the power imbalance even in therapy gives me lowkey trust issues.
Why do people assume that I want action rather than just someone that wanted to listen to what I had to tell when I was ready to do so?

i went to someone for cbt some years ago for like... 3 sessions n then i was like nvm bye, i didnt even say anything i have no idea what we even did lmao. but now im like more ready to try it i feel like so im like why not. but i get what ur saying, i think i mostly just wanna try it out n see how it is. bc it feels like some things r worse now n im tired of it never getting better so im like ill give it a go lol

quitting sounds like the right thing for u tho, hope things getter for u <3

Its worth a try, I think too. Before I went I used to feel like I had to because everyone does it and evrryone says it helps even tho I also was like I don't rly want to you know? I still feel like that. It's like it went from therapy is tabu until ur failed if u dont go like theres no other way to deal with MIs idkikd

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--- already sorry for the rant. idk if it was helpful at all or just me babbling --
Honestly, I'm about to quit my sessions tomorrow because I got the ultimatum that I now need to want to take active action (alas exposure therapy for my social anxiety) which I'm not really interested in, and know what I want to do further w\ the therapy (which I don't and I don't see much help in exposure therapy that I'm not already doing on my own as I'm like a good deal functioning at this point. ) As well, do these sessions just give me extra stress on my to-do list and guilt b\c my dad drives me, and it hasn't really done me much tbh. I never really had trust in therapy from the start tho, and it's not like I'm cured and I can deal with "every possible" situation but that wasn't my reality when I was 'healthy' either. Like I'd rather run my own run, you know. That's just how I work and prefer. I'd rather see myself opening up to people that I know than strangers -- when things feel safe for me to do so. And even though you're supposed to trust this person, I don't, and I don't know why someone assumes me to do that after having met a person like 8 times. I mean, I've told you some of my darkest experiences but this isn't trust.

I don't know.
Exposure therapy isn't what I want even though my "perfection complexes" will guilt me for quitting because now I'm a coward who quits. I also probably have a fear of authorities and well, the power imbalance even in therapy gives me lowkey trust issues.
Why do people assume that I want action rather than just someone that wanted to listen to what I had to tell when I was ready to do so?

i went to someone for cbt some years ago for like... 3 sessions n then i was like nvm bye, i didnt even say anything i have no idea what we even did lmao. but now im like more ready to try it i feel like so im like why not. but i get what ur saying, i think i mostly just wanna try it out n see how it is. bc it feels like some things r worse now n im tired of it never getting better so im like ill give it a go lol

quitting sounds like the right thing for u tho, hope things getter for u <3

Its worth a try, I think too. Before I went I used to feel like I had to because everyone does it and evrryone says it helps even tho I also was like I don't rly want to you know? I still feel like that. It's like it went from therapy is tabu until ur failed if u dont go like theres no other way to deal with MIs idkikd

i felt like that too before but now im more n more like i kinda wanna
im still kinda embarrassed abt the whole thing tho even tho i shouldnt lol idk how id say it to anyone irl but whatever

n since i mostly joke abt it irl it feels like im makin it all up but im just insecure i guess lmao, or im making it all up, i guess ill find out

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i went to someone for cbt some years ago for like... 3 sessions n then i was like nvm bye, i didnt even say anything i have no idea what we even did lmao. but now im like more ready to try it i feel like so im like why not. but i get what ur saying, i think i mostly just wanna try it out n see how it is. bc it feels like some things r worse now n im tired of it never getting better so im like ill give it a go lol

quitting sounds like the right thing for u tho, hope things getter for u <3

Its worth a try, I think too. Before I went I used to feel like I had to because everyone does it and evrryone says it helps even tho I also was like I don't rly want to you know? I still feel like that. It's like it went from therapy is tabu until ur failed if u dont go like theres no other way to deal with MIs idkikd

i felt like that too before but now im more n more like i kinda wanna
im still kinda embarrassed abt the whole thing tho even tho i shouldnt lol idk how id say it to anyone irl but whatever

n since i mostly joke abt it irl it feels like im makin it all up but im just insecure i guess lmao, or im making it all up, i guess ill find out

To be honest, only my dad knows I went over the spring and summer tho like I never got the courage to tell my sister bc she's like Everything is mindfuckness and im like ye i dont wanna deal with her presumptions that are based in her insecurities which we have many the same of

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Its worth a try, I think too. Before I went I used to feel like I had to because everyone does it and evrryone says it helps even tho I also was like I don't rly want to you know? I still feel like that. It's like it went from therapy is tabu until ur failed if u dont go like theres no other way to deal with MIs idkikd

i felt like that too before but now im more n more like i kinda wanna
im still kinda embarrassed abt the whole thing tho even tho i shouldnt lol idk how id say it to anyone irl but whatever

n since i mostly joke abt it irl it feels like im makin it all up but im just insecure i guess lmao, or im making it all up, i guess ill find out

To be honest, only my dad knows I went over the spring and summer tho like I never got the courage to tell my sister bc she's like Everything is mindfuckness and im like ye i dont wanna deal with her presumptions that are based in her insecurities which we have many the same of

oh i get that
i dont think anyone would judge me but im still like eh

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ok im thinking of this several times a day ive realised i cant ask the nurse abt it i gotta ask in the reception ig. n be like hi can i book a time here, blablabla. i have it all in my head how im gonna say it i have till monday to realise if its a bad idea or not tho

but also i cant rly book anything before i know how school is ugh. maybe if they happen to have a time next week i dunno

part of me is also like ok i have school n now i also wanna learn clarinet how am i gonna have time for that if i start with this. lol

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lol i decided to not say anything
like i dont even know my school schedule yet so i wouldnt be able to book anything anyways
n its not that bad probably
the only thing is i got pills back in november but they dont work for me so it would be that but who cares anistly

ive managed so far lmao

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this is such a tragic funny thread sry for bumping 2 months later.......................................................

but ive now
found on the website they have alleged "self remisses(?)" u can fill in in the reception n im going there next week anyways so. maybe i can ask abt that............. i swear tho bro if they dont have any ill be so embarrassed. but also they might be like. lets just book a time bro.

or theyll be like. call in instead. n ill be like "ofc <3

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also this is also, So Tragic
but i went to another chiller online book place to book a time almost to just get advice on how to actually get help at the other place.................. or just literly just talk to someone... but u couldnt book anything this year or ever it seemed so lol. i swear this is so funny im not joking im laughing at myself bro.

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lol that ppl bumped this i forgot abt the poll..
im not gonna delete the poll tho bc i want the attention ig, if there is any..
a lil creepy tho godda aydmit..