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uhyre wrote:
horrifyingly ngl
ive only had one grandparent die but it launched me into nearly a decade of depression, like it wasnt the only reason but it was maybe the largest one. i couldnt deal with life at all for months and hardly for years and i till this day dont celebrate christmas because it doesnt feel right to do so anymore. i was 12 i think? when she died which just makes me terrified for how ill react when my remaining grandmother dies. i know its gonna be a lot worse
it took me years to be able to talk casually about her even if entirely in a positive way, it and i still get weird freaky ghost dreams about her and i still catch myself wanting to go visit her bc its been a while and then i remember that i cant, and idk how hard i took it honestly. idk how to gauge that. my grandmothers have very much been on level with my parents in my life, who are only one step below my brother in the care chain, so i guess it doesnt get much worse than that for me personally
horrifyingly ngl
ive only had one grandparent die but it launched me into nearly a decade of depression, like it wasnt the only reason but it was maybe the largest one. i couldnt deal with life at all for months and hardly for years and i till this day dont celebrate christmas because it doesnt feel right to do so anymore. i was 12 i think? when she died which just makes me terrified for how ill react when my remaining grandmother dies. i know its gonna be a lot worse
it took me years to be able to talk casually about her even if entirely in a positive way, it and i still get weird freaky ghost dreams about her and i still catch myself wanting to go visit her bc its been a while and then i remember that i cant, and idk how hard i took it honestly. idk how to gauge that. my grandmothers have very much been on level with my parents in my life, who are only one step below my brother in the care chain, so i guess it doesnt get much worse than that for me personally
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