hutsu wrote:disintegration wrote:
Why are you still living with him?
At least you didn't throw the thing at him I guessÂ
because we still have a month in our lease and my mom is moving houses on the 13th so i can't move my things before that
i'm so embarrassed about not being able to control myself when he starts poking around. but idk several other people who have witnessed our fights before have tried to comfort me by saying that he clearly calculates his moves and voluntarily uses my triggers to get me stay in this space that's really unfamiliar to me. i'm not saying that me throwing things is his fault but he makes me feel so incredibly bad and angry that i can't cope with it, i literally have no tools for keeping myself calm in those situations, and i usually end up begging for him to stop and let me calm down but he just keeps going and then usually at some point starts yelling at me for not being able to instantly calm down when he tells me to.
This is one of the most twisted things I've ever read, dude.