Salem wrote:
maybe tw idk !!!!
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first started when all my friends started drinking n I hated it cos like ibs meant it never felt good for me like got no enjoyment from drinking n when I started smoking weed it just settled my stomach like nothing else, fixed a lot of problems I had w eating n stuff
and then it pretty much replaced self-harm for me like. getting high would give me the desired outcome > not thinking abt stuff I don't want 2 deal with cos I'm focusing on somethin else. and now really I hav a small fear of stopping cos it's the """what if""" n also I just ? enjoy it, it's also something I turn to when I feel anxious/stressed etc and it's also the only way I get little breaks at work lol. hav no interest in quitting rn, despite knowing it isn't a great coping mechanism and quitting would b good for my health ultimately like being a smoker is just part of me right now. if that makes any sense at all