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Cobain
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cobain wrote:

MissLondon wrote:

cobain wrote:

MissLondon wrote:
First, your workplace romance
probably isn’t on the dl
like you think it is.

You’ve been kicking it for a while
so why treat you as if you’re
a dirty little secret?
is it a culture thing that prevents
him from claiming you?

Either he’s mad stupid
and he values the feelings of
the person he lost the bet to
over yours
or maybe he doesn’t
consider himself your boyfriend

either way, it’s mad disrespectful

not a culture thing. we are official around certain people (like people we know privately, soooome people at work). but if we actually make it official like that one of us will be fired so there's that. he's told me if it comes to that he won't mind being fired tho so idk.
he has introduced me to his family n stuff
but yes it is disrespectftul and i will talk to him about this

Yeah, having mentioned that
it’s likely not a secret lol
as long as there’s no drama or pda
even tho there’s a “rule”
they don’t care.

and why is it always
the same girl, especially if you’ve
made it known how certain interactions
bother you?
I hope you get to communicate
in a positive manner and that
he actually listens
good luck❤️

oh yeah no i'm sure more ppl at work know. i really look forward to making it official for real tho, like not for any jealousy reasons, just... that i want to show him off to the entire world, u know. i'm so in love with this guy. we said we love each other the other day. and i fucking do. i love him.
there's these 2 girls i've been the most jealous about. coworker and now this girl he plays with. i feel calmer about coworker after yesterday when we were out with her tho. he did subtle things to make it known that he's mine. and she said we look good together

thank u <3

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
anyways i called him just now and had a talk with him, asked him if he'd removed her name and he said no bc he hadn't thought of it, but told me he was doing it right away. i explained to him why it bothered me. even if it's just for jokes i told him it makes me sad. bc he's with me so why have another girl's name and a heart in your insta name? or anywhere for that matter.

so we ended up talking a bit more about stuff regarding this. like certain situations that we haven't really talked about and just... our thoughts about everything. he brought up that his ex was very jealous and possessive, which he's told me before, and he told me he doesn't wanna go through that again and especially not with me because he loves me and wants to be with me. i told him i don't want it to be like that either, but certain things make me uncomfortable and upsets me and he should respect that. and the other way around ofc, some things make him upset and i should respect that.
so we got some clarity.
we're seeing each other tomorrow again and then i look forward to just being with him without there being any issues. i feel ok now (i'm still sleep deprived as hell tho so feels like i've downed 15 redbulls at once but)

i've been really fine the last 3 weeks or so. we were at a party 3 weeks ago and i kinda went off the rails a bit with the jealousy but after that it was like... everything just disappeared? i felt so calm and secure with him just out of the blue? but the psycho came back now the other day with all of this shit. so obviously still some issues going on here heh but i hope that after this conversation i'll generally feel calmer. bc we haven't really had a big talk about it like that before

Cobain
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cobain wrote:

Lullaby wrote:
arab dudes can't be trusted

www.tiktok.com/@secretsauci/video/7042160449323797766

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
ok so didn't go to him tonight. bc his friend is coming over, they're gonna watch a soccer game. he said he didn't know if the friend would stay over or not but whatever. ngl it made me a bit disappointed bc i just wanted to see him today after all the mess yesterday. just cuddle and have a good time, u know.
and today he's barely talked to me so maybe he's a bit mad at me or smth. idk. like i sent him a snap this morning and he sent me one back. when i sent another one at like 10 he didn't open it until late in the afternoon and he didn't respond. sent him another one a bit later and that was when he wrote to me that his friend is coming over.
i asked if i could call him after i quit work and he said "absolutely baby

" so i did. and yeah he felt a bit off or mad or smth. and maybe he is. and that's ok. maybe he needs time, be alone (or with a friend). and i thought maybe he hadn't responded to me all day bc he was sleeping but he said he woke up at noon. so basically just ignored me hah but i didn't even react to it when we talked (but it kinda hurt me).
but yah no i'm feeling a bit anxious still bc of everything yesterday and now when he's felt a bit off today. i hope we'll see each other tomorrow but i feel like we won't. idk sorry

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
GODDDD we've had such a good week tho. and the weeks before that were amazing too
then i went fucking psycho and ruined it. fuuuuuck

Hmm
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hmm wrote:

cobain wrote:
GODDDD we've had such a good week tho. and the weeks before that were amazing too
then i went fucking psycho and ruined it. fuuuuuck

you didn't go psycho, what he's doing is not right

Cobain
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cobain wrote:

hmm wrote:

cobain wrote:
GODDDD we've had such a good week tho. and the weeks before that were amazing too
then i went fucking psycho and ruined it. fuuuuuck

you didn't go psycho, what he's doing is not right

yeah i mean i think i have reason to have been jealous. maybe not bc he's talking to a friend that happens to be a girl BUT the whole name thingy on top of that?? absolutely yes. and i 100% know for SURE he wouldn't have liked if i put some guys name and a heart after it on snap for example. i feel like he's just kinda... oblivious to those kinds of things. when i've been jealous before about other things i've asked him what he would've felt if the tables were turned and always he's like "yeah no i wouldn't have liked that". so like.... think a little pls hehe

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
omg pls my dudes i feel like SHIT
as i said, he barely talked to me yesterday. nothing more after i called him.
same shit today. i sent him a good morning snap. he sent me just a pic with a time stamp. saw that he was home so i sent a message asking if he's not at work. he just said "no. i'm going with my friend today" and i was like "oh?? where?" and he was like "told you last week my friend had his birthday so we want to give him a present". i just said "ok have fun babe"
he didn't tell me about a friends birthday lol?? and we had some loose plans for tday?? ffs i was supposed to sleep at his yesterday and today we were going grocery shopping n stuff?

i sent him a mirror selfie a bit later and no response. literally NOTHING from him today.
like wtf? idk what to do i almost puked earlier today bc i felt so anxious about all of this

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
i randomly met a coworker (who he's neighbors with, who knows about us n everything, we're all good friends) so we grabbed a coffee. i hoped she wouldn't ask about him but she did. she asked if he was at work and i said no. she asked why and i was like "i don't really know" i didn't wanna say that he wasn't ill but?? it's also strange as fuck that i don't know? so eventually i just told her what he had told me. i know u can trust her so like yeah. what was i supposed to do u know. and she was like "u haven't been there??" and i said no. she was like "god what's happening to him" or smth. she showed me she had asked him earlier today (or maybe it was yesterday) how he was and he had just replied with a bunch of emojis who smile but have a tear

literally fuck fuck fuck i wanna call him and ask whats up but i dont wanna be too much and i wanna give him space if he needs it. ive checked his snap score (which i did earlier this year, before we were together n all that bc i didnt know where we stood) and i mean it's going up quite a lot so obviously talking to other people? but not me?
i really don't think this is right of him to do to me. we've just had some type of discussion and after that he's being so off and barely has any contact with me? fucking hell

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
i've been crying so much because i feel so helpless and anxious
idk what to do in this situation? like i guess i'm just not gonna contact him anymore today if he doesn't contact me, bc then he obviously doesn't wanna talk to me rn.

i work tomorrow and if he's not working idk... i guess i'll send him a message asking how he's doing or smth and see what he says. might ask if i can call him after work too, depending on what he answers me (and i won't make a deal out of anything, i just wanna see how he is and catch up since we're obviously not speaking much rn). if he does come to work i'll see how he is with me then idk i feel like major shit maaaajor major shit

i talked to a friend for a while just now and cried a lot about all of this. my friend tried calming me down, kind of the tough love type of person which i think i need even tho it makes me more sad in the moment. he told me that i can't have control over every situation and that's ok. i wanted to talk to him more because i am so upset but he doesn't have time, he might call me later today but he has work n stuff so it's not guaranteed. idk what to do to make time go faster bc i can't deal w this. i'm just crying and chain smoking

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
god make this stop

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
God wtf I was so happy just a week ago
He's just moved into town and we've spent almost all week together organising and getting comfortable.... and now this. I'm so scared he's gonna break up with me

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
I'm just counting down the minutes until its a reasonable time to go to bed. I don't feel tired and I'm scared I won't be able to sleep due to anxiety but.. I just want this day to end bc tomorrow I feel like I'll be able to move forward with this a bit. Actually talk to him

I feel nauseous again

Cobain
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cobain wrote:
I was never jealous with my ex u know. He was even best friends with an ex and it was totally fine, never bothered me. Idk why really but I guess I got a lot of confirmation from him and he never gave me reasons to be jealous. So obviously I'm not always jealous. Just when I'm unsure of someone's intentions and I feel insecure. Something I have to work on but I feel like a partner has to meet me halfway too. He is naturally very flirtatious, girls are literally falling at his feet, maybe that's the issue. He has so many options, endless fucking options so why choose me or why stick to me?? Idk fuck me

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Delusion1111111 wrote:
girl..................i think u really need to be single for a while

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