cobain wrote:
work yesterday was idk. met night girl in the locker room. i accidentally scared her and we had a laugh about it. she left before me and when i got up to the floor she was there (to see him i suppose). i thought he started at 8 but apparently at 7. he asked me if i'd slept well and i said no, he asked why so i just said i couldn't. i asked if he'd slept well, he said he fell asleep at like 4 again. i didn't mention night girl. he said he'd watched movies and that night girl had tried calling him several times and then she'd asked what he was doing so he'd told her he was sleeping. idk bout that tho lol maybe he just said that to me to not make me jealous or smth, maybe he actually sat up with her. none of my fucking business i guess.
i was so stressed the entire day so i couldn't focus on much else than doing my job. cried at one point bc it was TOO damn much, but no one saw me. we did eat breakfast together tho. he asked me b4 if i'd already eaten and i told him no so he was like "yeah u waited for me right" n i was like "heh yeah 😳😳"
i was cutting pomegranates, i've never done that before. coworker who knows about us told me to do another way bc her friend from iran had showed her or smth, i said that my guy maybe knows (bc just the other week i saw he was eating pomegranate lol) so when he came i told him i didn't know wtf i was doing. he told me i was doing it the right way. coworker was like "he's just saying that bc he's in love with u" LOOOL. then he told me to leave the pomegranates to him, he could finish it, bc it was quite time consuming and time is something i don't have hhhh
it feels a bit.. dry... on snap..... again.... he doesn't snap me like he did before, doesn't call me baby or cute shit in general so idk. doesn't talk to me much on snap? and like i was supposed to spend new years with him, but he hasn't said anything about it or whatever and i literally don't have any other plans so we'll see if i'll spend it alone. it will suck ass if i've bought a new dress and alcohol n shit if i just end up sitting alone hah