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unofficial complaint thread 2k21
Kit
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Kit wrote:
and like. every time i talk to anyone who's like "o and are u thinking of getting a job? are u working? have u considered? has it crossed ur mind?" and i tell them "yes i would love to, i feel like i have to, but i do not know how and i cannot find anything suitable for me and my limitations and skills" they seem to think i'm like. trying to come up with excuses not to work? like? as if i just won't get over myself nd just wanna find reasons to not do it? and its like ok. just because the issues i have wouldnt b issues for u doesn't mean im making them up to avoid getting a job like....... i am telling you very explicitly i could NOT make telemarketing phone calls for 8 hours a day. not that i don't want to, or it's not fun, or i'm afraid to, or i'd rather do something else. i'm saying i cant. and if u gave me a script i could probably do it in english? but i cannot do it in dutch.
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Date: 10-10-2020 13:59
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like, i would gladly work filling shelves at a fucking grocery store if they didn't also list in their job listing shit like:

- be flexible in your hours (read: we will call you in on your day off and cancel your shift when we dont need you, aka unpredictability that i cannot handle bc again . autism. ... . . )
- be social and work well in a team, strong customer service skills required! (pls let me stock shelves without having to talk to people like. can i please do my job and not be an emotional whore for the general public for 9 euros 70 cents an hour before tax thank u )
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:01
Kit
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Kit wrote:
honestly i should have never gotten tattoos then i could just cam
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:02
Kit
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Kit wrote:
ok listen im not . thrilled abt mental/physical disabilities comparisons but imagine ur in a wheelchair and every single job on the goddamn market requires u to be able to do jumping jacks .... & instead of people realizing that of course u then are havign a hard time finding a job, they think u are just lazy or picky or complain too much or are just self-defeating or are being overdramatic and if u just tried hard enough or gave it a shot then ofc u could do jumping jacks ???? idk
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:07
Kit
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Kit wrote:
or if they went "well you're in a wheelchair, and a lot of people in wheelchairs are good at drawing (???? idk) and therefore the only jobs that don't require the use of your legs are art related and drawing related. there's actual support for wheelchair users to find jobs in art sectors and you have access to coaching, support, and career opportunities! yay!" and you simply cannot draw for shit and didn't go to school for drawing and the whole world just doesn't believe u actually exist. and people say "o but there's so much support and organizations and companies that hire just wheelchair users!!!" and ur like. Yes but to draw. and i cant do that. 
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:11
Kit
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Kit wrote:
and yes ok i can read all of this nd look at myself nd b like. "wow this bitch rly wants a job handed to her huh" and like. yes tahts true. not bc i am "lazy" or unwilling to put in the work ! but because i have no fucking idea how to find one unless someone just gives it to me. like im not. itsn ot that i dont want to do things or work hard its that i have no idea how and i need someone to teach me but the idea that i need help with things is already so not okay because i'm high functioning and intelligent and i'm just being dramatic but like
i really dont know ? how ? because i am looking ? i can spend hours a day googling and reading things and following links and looking for gov resources and reading company websites and job listing websites and tips for job interviews and for making ur CV and for job interviews and everything and like? its not happening?
and on top of all of that even if i were to bite the bullet and say ok i will bite the bullet and work in a restaurant or at a bar for 3-6 months before i quit bc of burnout, those jobs are not available or stable right now bc of covid like ? every other week the rules change and that would be super unstable ? and on top of that i dont want to fucking die perhaps ?
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:19
Kit
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Kit wrote:
o AND ! another thing ! since i'm now only smoking weed on the weekends i have to make all my social plans on the weekends so i don't have to like. explain to people over and over that im not longer smoking during the week but that just means i have
back to back to back dinner plans with my cousin, my friend who just came back to the country, nd then my codependent pal and
i only did one dinner yesterday and i already wanna stop and give up im tired
also i keep volunteering to cook bc .... a, my cousin always cooks for me and i wnated to do smth nice in return, 
b. i do not trust that 2nd friend to cook anything edible & also she's having a hard time n i wanna support her
c. my codependent pal isn't gonna be home til the evening anyway so it'd be nice to have dinner ready already for her, also she doesnt rly ever cook lol
but like im fuckng tired i just want to cry all day im . tired and cold and too broke to be doing groceries for everyone but like, still doing it ? and i jus wann afuckign go home and have my mom take care of me for like. 48 hours
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:35
Kit
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Kit wrote:
and i cant keep calling my mom every day bc she'll get so tired of me crying over thigns we can't change nd feel so powerless nd then resent me for havign feelings and im just . god t fuckign sucks 
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:35
Kit
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Kit wrote:
AND i keep making plans with people and pushing myself to be social and have a network bc i know it's important but it's exhausting and so hard and so fucking stressful, and i'm like. making the plans, getting the groceries, cooking the dinner, cleaning the kitchen and all i want to do is cry and be held but it aint gna happen so instead im drinking heavily and heating up a hot water bottle to give me the illusion of another person's warmth 
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:39
Kit
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Kit wrote:
anyway my fucking head hurts and i wish this chick would just say all of her things in one or two texts instead of ten bc she needs to put each word in a separate text bc the buzz is fucking aggravating me 
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Date: 10-10-2020 14:44
Kit
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Kit wrote:
sad stressed sad annoyed stressed sad .. punctuated only by the momentary bliss of making a comprehensive grocery shopping list and not forgetting anything
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Date: 10-10-2020 15:08
Kit
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Kit wrote:
://///// nice ok lvoe it when we make plans together and then the day of she cancels .... love it 
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Date: 13-10-2020 13:43
Kit
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Kit wrote:
like ? did i move plans to wednesday specifically bc we were hanging out today ? did i come up with an idea for dinner, offer to do groceries and cook and do dishes just to have you cancel afterwards like ? 

did u have to dick around n whine about how u didnt have dishes and didnt have dinner ideas, until i come up with ideas and offer to do all ur goddamn chores ? did u have to actually make a complete plan with me first before canceling ? 
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Date: 13-10-2020 13:45
Kit
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Kit wrote:
like what the fuck is the point of saying ur not sure bc u have stuff, but then going "ok yeah lets do it!" and making us bend over backwards trying to come up with a situation that works for you (ok u can't do things or think of things ? so we'll come to yours, we'll come up with dinner, we'll cook dinner, we'll wash dishes for and after dinner) 

and THEN !!!! only after we've actually solidified plans and gone like "ok yeah this is what we're doing" do you go "ah actually never mind we shouldnt..." and like

i dont wanna sit here alone ! i dont ! i like a bit of time to myself but 3 days of not leaving my room having no one to talk to and no one to eat with and trying to just not do drugs all by myself ? no thank u ! 
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Date: 13-10-2020 13:56
Kit
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Kit wrote:
and this fucking moron keeps being like ? "oh if u wanna hang out after / later let us know!" ( doNT ! do not ! i am not going over at 10pm after being canceled on today ! no ! )

or "i have my video game so im content tbh" OK NICE FOR U IM NOT ! im not content at all ! i do not like sitting at home in my 12 sq. meter room by myself freezing at my desk with no one to talk to and nothing to do except hate myself and wanna do drugs ! 

or "have an afternoon or evening to yourself!" o u MEAN LIKE i did yesterday ? will do today ? will do again tomorrow ? i dont fucking want it ! 
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Date: 13-10-2020 13:59
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