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Suchomimus wrote:
Sobbing wrote:
have ur reasons changed
if why or why not
what keeps u going
mm mine have not changed
just scared to diei don't want to think about the future bc i know it's not good, so im just gonna keep on keeping on
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Date: 10-08-2022 19:50
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Sobbing wrote:
Suchomimus wrote:
Sobbing wrote:
have ur reasons changed
if why or why not
what keeps u going
mm mine have not changed
just scared to diei don't want to think about the future bc i know it's not good, so im just gonna keep on keeping on
but what do  do when u get up and ur like
life sucks

how do u even get out of bed
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Date: 10-08-2022 19:51
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Sobbing wrote:
also yea im periodically gonna renew this thread or bump it or whatever to see how peoples reasons change or what their reasons are
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Sobbing wrote:
my only reason to live disappeared a few months ago
i dont have anything to hold onto and ive been living like a ghost, just sleeping, eating, pissing, shitting, sleeping
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Date: 10-08-2022 19:53
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glowed wrote:
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it would make my mom and siblings sad. that's my only motivator as of now, but i'm working on it : D

i just love to travel and i'd like to see more of the world and meet some online friends and i'm just taking it step by step ig
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Suchomimus wrote:
Sobbing wrote:
Suchomimus wrote:
Sobbing wrote:
have ur reasons changed
if why or why not
what keeps u going
mm mine have not changed
just scared to diei don't want to think about the future bc i know it's not good, so im just gonna keep on keeping on
but what do  do when u get up and ur like
life sucks

how do u even get out of bed
i struggle w that almost everyday, i am usually able to overcome it bc i know that if i don't there'll be someone who'll shout at me or make me feel much worse and i will spiral into a much deeper depression as i have done before
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Date: 10-08-2022 19:59
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Date: 10-08-2022 19:59
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Sobbing wrote:
glowed wrote:
ii
it would make my mom and siblings sad ig. that's my only motivator as of now, but i'm working on it : D

i just love to travel and i'd like to see more of the world and meet some online friends and i'm just taking it step by step ig
what r ur steps
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Date: 10-08-2022 20:00
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Sobbing wrote:
Suchomimus wrote:
Sobbing wrote:
Suchomimus wrote:
mm mine have not changed
just scared to diei don't want to think about the future bc i know it's not good, so im just gonna keep on keeping on
but what do  do when u get up and ur like
life sucks

how do u even get out of bed
i struggle w that almost everyday, i am usually able to overcome it bc i know that if i don't there'll be someone who'll shout at me or make me feel much worse and i will spiral into a much deeper depression as i have done before
doesnt sound healthy but i do the same
if i dont get up and do the things i need ill hear what kind of piece of trash i am :thumbsup:
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Date: 10-08-2022 20:00
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Suchomimus wrote:
Sobbing wrote:
Suchomimus wrote:
Sobbing wrote:
but what do  do when u get up and ur like
life sucks

how do u even get out of bed
i struggle w that almost everyday, i am usually able to overcome it bc i know that if i don't there'll be someone who'll shout at me or make me feel much worse and i will spiral into a much deeper depression as i have done before
doesnt sound healthy but i do the same
if i dont get up and do the things i need ill hear what kind of piece of trash i am :thumbsup:
yes exactly it's not worth it :/ hopefully someday we'll actually live bc we want to
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Date: 10-08-2022 20:02
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wug wrote:
it is what it is is what keeps me alive
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Date: 10-08-2022 20:07
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Kino wrote:
at this point the only thing keeping me alive is a 50/50 mixture of fear of hurting those i love and kpop
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Date: 10-08-2022 20:10
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Miguel wrote:
i live out of spite and also cause i want to buy cool stuff
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Date: 10-08-2022 20:11
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hmm wrote:
i dunno, technically nothing but when i think about how i'd feel in the moment of the deed i know i'd tap out because i'd start thinking about things like friends, family (albeit a very shitty one), my "goals", etc. even though in a more lucid state those things aren't enough to make me want to live. i'm indifferent to uwuwuw but they're gonna be sad uwuw, grief is 100% allowed but life must go on i suppose
i suppose my sentimentality is the thing keeping me going, also cus idunno i'm too lazy for anything and i don't take my very depressed states seriously long enough because i know i'll find a distraction that will amend the feeling anyways yes, like looking at art or watching youtube wow, very mundane but my brain is easily entertained yes.
plus i've been worse off before and it brought me nowhere so i try to remind myself to not repeat what i did back then yes, sometimes i do it obvi cus it's only natural and my brain really really likes the familiarity of it, but yes it do be an uphill battle or whateva is said  that's the shittiest part tbh it only adds to the misery but u gotta do what u gotta do .... also monkey brain survival instincts yes, there's a surprising amount of people who spend their whole lives being suicidal yet never commit the deed
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Sobbing wrote:
hmm wrote:
i dunno, technically nothing but when i think about how i'd feel in the moment of the deed i know i'd tap out because i'd start thinking about things like friends, family (albeit a very shitty one), my "goals", etc. even though in a more lucid state those things aren't enough to make me want to live. i'm indifferent to uwuwuw but they're gonna be sad uwuw, grief is 100% allowed but life must go on i suppose
i suppose my sentimentality is the thing keeping me going, also cus idunno i'm too lazy for anything and i don't take my very depressed states seriously long enough because i know i'll find a distraction that will amend the feeling anyways yes, like looking at art or watching youtube wow, very mundane but my brain is easily entertained yes.
plus i've been worse off before and it brought me nowhere so i try to remind myself to not repeat what i did back then yes, sometimes i do it obvi cus it's only natural and my brain really really likes the familiarity of it, but yes it do be an uphill battle or whateva is said  that's the shittiest part tbh it only adds to the misery but u gotta do what u gotta do .... also monkey brain survival instincts yes, there's a surprising amount of people who spend their whole lives being suicidal yet never commit the deed
but WHAT do u live for
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Date: 10-08-2022 20:17
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