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Postproduction wrote:
Cause I don't enjoy it anymore, but I feel like I have anything else to do, so here I am
But yeah I relate very much with your problem, I struggle to get out of that evil circle of online entertainment when I'm first in in
nikocado wrote:
It'll probably help with the whole structure thing, I want to enjoy myself so much but I end up taking it too far and become undisciplined and miserable lol
I'm gonna regret saying this once I begin studying this fall, but yes, I can't wait to wake up early, have coffee in the morning, take the bus to school, meet PEOPLE, do productive shit, then get home and actually feeling like my screen time is time I can enjoy and deserve Postproduction wrote:
YEP
I suck at putting things into words, but this past year I've been feeling lack of stuff that's educational and stimulating for my brain
I've gotten into this evil circle of starting to watch a video that I've don't really have much interest in actually watching, and then I go to the recommended list just to click a new video, watch a few seconds and then I choose another one, and suddenly three hours have past and I've seen so much shit content for no reason what so ever
And then I just feel empty
I start to rethink every decision I've done in my life that has gotten me to this point
I compare myself to every other person my age, that studies hard, has a routine, works out, have friends and do stuff to grow as a human being while I'm stuck in the same pattern I've been in since high school
I hate myself for it, I feel so stupid, and my life feels so miserable and meaningless
Then I go back into youtube and do it all over again
I need some books or something
I feel like I may need to schedule a part of my day dedicated to just.. not being on the computer, not even for school. Like just go outside, sit in the living room or draw on paper.. Looking at the screen 24/7 is really fucking me up, I hate to admit it because I don't like waking up at 5 in the morning, but I'm so glad that I'll have in-person school again this week. YEP
I suck at putting things into words, but this past year I've been feeling lack of stuff that's educational and stimulating for my brain
I've gotten into this evil circle of starting to watch a video that I've don't really have much interest in actually watching, and then I go to the recommended list just to click a new video, watch a few seconds and then I choose another one, and suddenly three hours have past and I've seen so much shit content for no reason what so ever
And then I just feel empty
I start to rethink every decision I've done in my life that has gotten me to this point
I compare myself to every other person my age, that studies hard, has a routine, works out, have friends and do stuff to grow as a human being while I'm stuck in the same pattern I've been in since high school
I hate myself for it, I feel so stupid, and my life feels so miserable and meaningless
Then I go back into youtube and do it all over again
I need some books or something
It'll probably help with the whole structure thing, I want to enjoy myself so much but I end up taking it too far and become undisciplined and miserable lol
Cause I don't enjoy it anymore, but I feel like I have anything else to do, so here I am
But yeah I relate very much with your problem, I struggle to get out of that evil circle of online entertainment when I'm first in in
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