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Barbarella wrote:
I personally never know how to react when folks around me engage in self-loathing behavior and I can't bring myself to engage bc I know the kind of person I was when I was doing it, and it was a very immature and icky approach to the issues I was having. 

Bloodflowers wrote:
Like I was open about having bipolar disorder (which I don’t have anymore) and he was alright. Today I said I was in hospital after a psychotic episode and he was like alright.
i just find it weird he doesn’t have any questions? And this has always been an issue in relationships before? So I’m worried he has this idea of me and then when it’s not new anymore it’s going to start being an issue

Bloodflowers wrote:
I don’t think informing about things that could be a deal breaker is the same as self-loathing. At some point imo those conversations should be had.

Barbarella wrote:
Okay I finally put food in my belly and sifted thru the posts to find the whole story lol


He may actually just not know what questions to ask yet. When my mom was committed and the doctors kept asking me if I had questions, I didn't because I had no idea where to even start, it's a huge thing to process. He may ask questions later, he may not

I'd only worry if he starts using it against you to be hurtful or acts like he wasn't told. 
I'd take the "okay" as more of a "heard, understood" 

men in general aren't great conversationalists in my experience, especially when topics get heavy lol

Barbarella wrote:
yeah I was definitely too hasty in responding and overlooked your explanation
that's my bad, I apologize. 

Bloodflowers wrote:
I hope that is the case but that we get to have a conversation about it at some point as I think it is pretty important

Barbarella wrote:
I mean a conversation has to happen eventually, if you are serious partners, he should know and understand early warning signs of manic episodes - partners are supposed to look out for each other. 

If it were me I'd try to sprinkle it into normal conversation when it's relevant so it doesn't feel so heavy when y'all do have to talk it out.  But I also know how heavy it feels to not have your partner engage when something is really important. 

How old are y'all?

Barbarella wrote:
honestly a good place to start would be to ask him
"what do you think bipolar means?" or if he's ever known anyone with bipolar disorder before. 

I think a lot of folks don't truly realize how serious of a disorder it is because of the way we've minimized it as a society with the "oh I'm so bipolar!" shit. 

It also prevents you from having to go thru explaining things he already knows. He may have the questions you'd hoped if the conversation feels question based, by you starting it with a question.