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lol highly populated ecosystem = biodiversity lol your brain is biodiverse. jk.

yes my brain is biodiverse, we have a baby, some toddlers, kids, some teens, a few adults, and an unknown amount of nonhuman creatures

sounds scary. you should get tested for DID, it sounds a lot like it and often happens after childhood trauma (i hope this is okay to say, but i've heard you've had some stuff happening to you back then)

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Something I wonder but never really have found an answer to
Is there a thing of like the "original" personality? Do most systems still have the original personality as one of the personalities, or is it not even a thing with an original one? And if it is, is it usually the host or can they have every other role too? U don't have to answer but im just curious tbh

sometimes there's a thing like the "original" personality, but it doesn't have to be the host. the host can change over time. i actually don't know if i'm the original personality, which i think is called the core? i think i am, but im not sure.

That seems so weird to live with
Very interesting to learn abt tbh

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Skullintercourse wrote:

December wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

December wrote:
lol highly populated ecosystem = biodiversity lol your brain is biodiverse. jk.

yes my brain is biodiverse, we have a baby, some toddlers, kids, some teens, a few adults, and an unknown amount of nonhuman creatures

sounds scary. you should get tested for DID, it sounds a lot like it and often happens after childhood trauma (i hope this is okay to say, but i've heard you've had some stuff happening to you back then)

eh currently there's no one who feels like evaluating me for anything. i used to have an unspecified dissociative disorder diagnosis (i had so many dissociative symptoms and there wasn't time to evaluate them during that hospitalisation so they went with unspecified) but it was removed when the schizophrenia diagnosis was set even tho the symptoms weren't gone. now my schizophrenia is treated and stabilised to the point of only residual symptoms being left, so i hope i can get my dissociation diagnosis back sometime this year. my therapist is aware of my alters tho, it's not a secret of anything

edit: forgot to reply to the last part. yeah i had some pretty hefty trauma growing up, still dont know how much exactly happened rjagnjrkagakr

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Skullintercourse wrote:

Skin wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

Skin wrote:
Something I wonder but never really have found an answer to
Is there a thing of like the "original" personality? Do most systems still have the original personality as one of the personalities, or is it not even a thing with an original one? And if it is, is it usually the host or can they have every other role too? U don't have to answer but im just curious tbh

sometimes there's a thing like the "original" personality, but it doesn't have to be the host. the host can change over time. i actually don't know if i'm the original personality, which i think is called the core? i think i am, but im not sure.

That seems so weird to live with
Very interesting to learn abt tbh

it's my normal so it's not that weird, just that some (read: most) alters are very uncomfortable around other people so im the one who has to handle most social stuff anyway. the others are fine communicating with others online though

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Skin wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

Skin wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:
sometimes there's a thing like the "original" personality, but it doesn't have to be the host. the host can change over time. i actually don't know if i'm the original personality, which i think is called the core? i think i am, but im not sure.

That seems so weird to live with
Very interesting to learn abt tbh

it's my normal so it's not that weird, just that some (read: most) alters are very uncomfortable around other people so im the one who has to handle most social stuff anyway. the others are fine communicating with others online though

Yeah its just weird how the brain be doing that kind of
And that it works in such a similar specific way for most ppl is weird but also good ig?

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Skullintercourse wrote:

Skin wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

Skin wrote:
That seems so weird to live with
Very interesting to learn abt tbh

it's my normal so it's not that weird, just that some (read: most) alters are very uncomfortable around other people so im the one who has to handle most social stuff anyway. the others are fine communicating with others online though

Yeah its just weird how the brain be doing that kind of
And that it works in such a similar specific way for most ppl is weird but also good ig?

it has to do with trauma and development. basically when kids are little, different psychological functions are fragmented and the personality hasn't integrated the functions yet. if a big trauma happens, a function can be split off from the rest and can just wind up being developed into a person. when you've first split as a child, stress in the future can cause new splits, even as an adult. it also can take years or even decades to figure out how many alters you have, aka how many times you actually split. it's a defense mechanism of survival

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ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

Skin wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:
it's my normal so it's not that weird, just that some (read: most) alters are very uncomfortable around other people so im the one who has to handle most social stuff anyway. the others are fine communicating with others online though

Yeah its just weird how the brain be doing that kind of
And that it works in such a similar specific way for most ppl is weird but also good ig?

it has to do with trauma and development. basically when kids are little, different psychological functions are fragmented and the personality hasn't integrated the functions yet. if a big trauma happens, a function can be split off from the rest and can just wind up being developed into a person. when you've first split as a child, stress in the future can cause new splits, even as an adult. it also can take years or even decades to figure out how many alters you have, aka how many times you actually split. it's a defense mechanism of survival

Yeah I know, just weird how everyones brain decided to do almost the same thing ! But I guess u can say that about a lot of stuff, but its interesting nonetheless
Isn't it possible to get help and work on integrating the different personalities so they are more working together as one too? Or at least kind of work them together so there is less
Idk if that is true but I have heard abt it

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December wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

December wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:
yes my brain is biodiverse, we have a baby, some toddlers, kids, some teens, a few adults, and an unknown amount of nonhuman creatures

sounds scary. you should get tested for DID, it sounds a lot like it and often happens after childhood trauma (i hope this is okay to say, but i've heard you've had some stuff happening to you back then)

eh currently there's no one who feels like evaluating me for anything. i used to have an unspecified dissociative disorder diagnosis (i had so many dissociative symptoms and there wasn't time to evaluate them during that hospitalisation so they went with unspecified) but it was removed when the schizophrenia diagnosis was set even tho the symptoms weren't gone. now my schizophrenia is treated and stabilised to the point of only residual symptoms being left, so i hope i can get my dissociation diagnosis back sometime this year. my therapist is aware of my alters tho, it's not a secret of anything

edit: forgot to reply to the last part. yeah i had some pretty hefty trauma growing up, still dont know how much exactly happened rjagnjrkagakr

i hope everything goes alright and that you get your diagnosis. you are strong and basically having alters is just your body kinda protecting yourself

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Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

Skin wrote:
Yeah its just weird how the brain be doing that kind of
And that it works in such a similar specific way for most ppl is weird but also good ig?

it has to do with trauma and development. basically when kids are little, different psychological functions are fragmented and the personality hasn't integrated the functions yet. if a big trauma happens, a function can be split off from the rest and can just wind up being developed into a person. when you've first split as a child, stress in the future can cause new splits, even as an adult. it also can take years or even decades to figure out how many alters you have, aka how many times you actually split. it's a defense mechanism of survival

Yeah I know, just weird how everyones brain decided to do almost the same thing ! But I guess u can say that about a lot of stuff, but its interesting nonetheless
Isn't it possible to get help and work on integrating the different personalities so they are more working together as one too? Or at least kind of work them together so there is less
Idk if that is true but I have heard abt it

yeah it's a bit odd, but i mean our genes are mostly the same stuff so? like the difference in genes isn't that big from person to person. and yeah, integration is a thing! to for example integrate a little (child alter) you first have to make them grow to the age of the host and then treat their issues and the issue that made them so they're not "necessary" for survival anymore, and then they can integrate. i don't feel safe trying to integrate anyone yet.

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Skullintercourse wrote:

December wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

December wrote:
sounds scary. you should get tested for DID, it sounds a lot like it and often happens after childhood trauma (i hope this is okay to say, but i've heard you've had some stuff happening to you back then)

eh currently there's no one who feels like evaluating me for anything. i used to have an unspecified dissociative disorder diagnosis (i had so many dissociative symptoms and there wasn't time to evaluate them during that hospitalisation so they went with unspecified) but it was removed when the schizophrenia diagnosis was set even tho the symptoms weren't gone. now my schizophrenia is treated and stabilised to the point of only residual symptoms being left, so i hope i can get my dissociation diagnosis back sometime this year. my therapist is aware of my alters tho, it's not a secret of anything

edit: forgot to reply to the last part. yeah i had some pretty hefty trauma growing up, still dont know how much exactly happened rjagnjrkagakr

i hope everything goes alright and that you get your diagnosis. you are strong and basically having alters is just your body kinda protecting yourself

thank u<33 yeah i know. i don't mind my alters, i just mind that others aren't comfortable with them? like my boyfriend gets uncomfy when i switch cause he doesn't know them, so we're working with my therapist on figuring out good ways for us to cope with it in our relationship

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ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:
it has to do with trauma and development. basically when kids are little, different psychological functions are fragmented and the personality hasn't integrated the functions yet. if a big trauma happens, a function can be split off from the rest and can just wind up being developed into a person. when you've first split as a child, stress in the future can cause new splits, even as an adult. it also can take years or even decades to figure out how many alters you have, aka how many times you actually split. it's a defense mechanism of survival

Yeah I know, just weird how everyones brain decided to do almost the same thing ! But I guess u can say that about a lot of stuff, but its interesting nonetheless
Isn't it possible to get help and work on integrating the different personalities so they are more working together as one too? Or at least kind of work them together so there is less
Idk if that is true but I have heard abt it

yeah it's a bit odd, but i mean our genes are mostly the same stuff so? like the difference in genes isn't that big from person to person. and yeah, integration is a thing! to for example integrate a little (child alter) you first have to make them grow to the age of the host and then treat their issues and the issue that made them so they're not "necessary" for survival anymore, and then they can integrate. i don't feel safe trying to integrate anyone yet.

That sounds like a lot of work, especially if u have many, but probably worth it when ur ready tho

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Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:
Yeah I know, just weird how everyones brain decided to do almost the same thing ! But I guess u can say that about a lot of stuff, but its interesting nonetheless
Isn't it possible to get help and work on integrating the different personalities so they are more working together as one too? Or at least kind of work them together so there is less
Idk if that is true but I have heard abt it

yeah it's a bit odd, but i mean our genes are mostly the same stuff so? like the difference in genes isn't that big from person to person. and yeah, integration is a thing! to for example integrate a little (child alter) you first have to make them grow to the age of the host and then treat their issues and the issue that made them so they're not "necessary" for survival anymore, and then they can integrate. i don't feel safe trying to integrate anyone yet.

That sounds like a lot of work, especially if u have many, but probably worth it when ur ready tho

yeah but ill need a hella good therapist and also a very calm and stable life, which at the moment i have, but im moving in just over 4 months (maybe a month less, maybe a month more). so yeah...

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ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:
yeah it's a bit odd, but i mean our genes are mostly the same stuff so? like the difference in genes isn't that big from person to person. and yeah, integration is a thing! to for example integrate a little (child alter) you first have to make them grow to the age of the host and then treat their issues and the issue that made them so they're not "necessary" for survival anymore, and then they can integrate. i don't feel safe trying to integrate anyone yet.

That sounds like a lot of work, especially if u have many, but probably worth it when ur ready tho

yeah but ill need a hella good therapist and also a very calm and stable life, which at the moment i have, but im moving in just over 4 months (maybe a month less, maybe a month more). so yeah...

Ahh yeah probably good to wait
If the police thing isn't done either yet that can also be stressful I can imagine

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Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:
That sounds like a lot of work, especially if u have many, but probably worth it when ur ready tho

yeah but ill need a hella good therapist and also a very calm and stable life, which at the moment i have, but im moving in just over 4 months (maybe a month less, maybe a month more). so yeah...

Ahh yeah probably good to wait
If the police thing isn't done either yet that can also be stressful I can imagine

yeah. today i told my therapist i've been switching more the past few days, and she was like "have you been with the lawyer recently?" and i was like "oh shit yeah i have". so that has to settle first as well.

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ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:

ouch wrote:

Skullintercourse wrote:
yeah but ill need a hella good therapist and also a very calm and stable life, which at the moment i have, but im moving in just over 4 months (maybe a month less, maybe a month more). so yeah...

Ahh yeah probably good to wait
If the police thing isn't done either yet that can also be stressful I can imagine

yeah. today i told my therapist i've been switching more the past few days, and she was like "have you been with the lawyer recently?" and i was like "oh shit yeah i have". so that has to settle first as well.

Ouff yeah understandable, I wish u good luck at least
Seems like a lot