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I was with someone who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with and all of a sudden he's just gone and he's the first person I've loved in a long time.

And I thought I'd be okay but now it's just all coming at me at once and it hurts
The worst part is that I know I wasn't treated completely like I should've been treated but I still feel like it's my fault. And I keep losing people and tbh Idk if I can handle that anymore. I've lost so many and he meant the world to me.

I had someone who supported me and now he's distant too, just like everyone else who used to be in my life. I'm not even in contact with half of my fking family.

Idk what to do I just want it to stoppp

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Medusa wrote:
update it doesn't stop

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everyone has his own story
life
ur are worth

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Medusa wrote:

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everyone has his own story
life
ur are worth

but it's not about worth.
it's about handling a situation that is hard and makes u want to not have that life.

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wdym hes just gone

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BunnyButts wrote:
Therapy is truly wonderful for this stuff I know it might not be what you want to hear but they are there for you and are trained and specialized in this kind of problems. My therapist has been a major support system through both my good and bad days. There are even online therapist that you can text and call if you don't feel safe/ready to meet in person!

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BunnyButts wrote:
Therapy is truly wonderful for this stuff I know it might not be what you want to hear but they are there for you and are trained and specialized in this kind of problems. My therapist has been a major support system through both my good and bad days. There are even online therapist that you can text and call if you don't feel safe/ready to meet in person!

I once went into therapy and they called the cops when I clearly asked them not to, and they pressured me into talking about stuff I did not want to talk about.

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Brihanna wrote:
wdym hes just gone

He's not dead if that's what u mean.

I'm talking about the fact that all of a sudden he's out of my life and probably will never come back to it.

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I know that things fele hard right now, and that they will never get better, but they honestly will. These are valid emotions and it's allowed to hurt, but just know that this feeling won't last. You can get through it!

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Medusa wrote:
Yup so we just talked and he said he doesn't want the relationship anymore, at all, and that he doesn't want to talk to me nor see me, he said he will drop my stuff at my door and leave immediately. His friend deleted me from their friends.

On top of that he ignored most of the stuff I said. Love it how he made me seem like the fault in the relationship when he made multiple mistakes himself.
Things were fixable, these are excuses.

Next.

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Nami wrote:

BunnyButts wrote:
Therapy is truly wonderful for this stuff I know it might not be what you want to hear but they are there for you and are trained and specialized in this kind of problems. My therapist has been a major support system through both my good and bad days. There are even online therapist that you can text and call if you don't feel safe/ready to meet in person!

I once went into therapy and they called the cops when I clearly asked them not to, and they pressured me into talking about stuff I did not want to talk about.

I'm so sorry that happened to you that's a terrible therapist, I've had it happen before with a doctor but I truly suggest going to find another one it could really help you feel less alone right now and even help you in the future if you find yourself in a similar situation again

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Medusa wrote:

BunnyButts wrote:

Nami wrote:

BunnyButts wrote:
Therapy is truly wonderful for this stuff I know it might not be what you want to hear but they are there for you and are trained and specialized in this kind of problems. My therapist has been a major support system through both my good and bad days. There are even online therapist that you can text and call if you don't feel safe/ready to meet in person!

I once went into therapy and they called the cops when I clearly asked them not to, and they pressured me into talking about stuff I did not want to talk about.

@Nami I'm so sorry that happened to you that's a terrible therapist, I've had it happen before with a doctor but I truly suggest going to find another one it could really help you feel less alone right now and even help you in the future if you find yourself in a similar situation again

I had a mental breakdown and called my mom, she told me to go back to a psychiatrist so that I could get time off and wouldn't have to work in this condition and that I'd get meds for depression.

However Idk what to do because I used meds once and it caused me to have even worse condition, and I tried to take my own life. I ended up quitting the meds so that I could drink alcohol because the medicine didn't work. I'm really, really scared to go back there because the drama cuts deep.

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Nami wrote:

BunnyButts wrote:

Nami wrote:
I once went into therapy and they called the cops when I clearly asked them not to, and they pressured me into talking about stuff I did not want to talk about.

@Nami I'm so sorry that happened to you that's a terrible therapist, I've had it happen before with a doctor but I truly suggest going to find another one it could really help you feel less alone right now and even help you in the future if you find yourself in a similar situation again

I had a mental breakdown and called my mom, she told me to go back to a psychiatrist so that I could get time off and wouldn't have to work in this condition and that I'd get meds for depression.

However Idk what to do because I used meds once and it caused me to have even worse condition, and I tried to take my own life. I ended up quitting the meds so that I could drink alcohol because the medicine didn't work. I'm really, really scared to go back there because the drama cuts deep.

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do you remember what the meds were called? how long were you on them?

i'm really sorry to hear. i can't begin to understand what it feels like to be in your circumstance. You have every right to be angry and betrayed by the therapists calling the cops on you and you are allowed to feel down. but you seem to have been through so much, as bleak as the future seems right now, don't focus on it. you can get through this, have have clearly been through a lot and you're much stronger than you give yourself credit for

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Medusa wrote:

Xenya wrote:

Nami wrote:

BunnyButts wrote:
@Nami I'm so sorry that happened to you that's a terrible therapist, I've had it happen before with a doctor but I truly suggest going to find another one it could really help you feel less alone right now and even help you in the future if you find yourself in a similar situation again

I had a mental breakdown and called my mom, she told me to go back to a psychiatrist so that I could get time off and wouldn't have to work in this condition and that I'd get meds for depression.

However Idk what to do because I used meds once and it caused me to have even worse condition, and I tried to take my own life. I ended up quitting the meds so that I could drink alcohol because the medicine didn't work. I'm really, really scared to go back there because the drama cuts deep.

@BunnyButts

do you remember what the meds were called? how long were you on them?

i'm really sorry to hear. i can't begin to understand what it feels like to be in your circumstance. You have every right to be angry and betrayed by the therapists calling the cops on you and you are allowed to feel down. but you seem to have been through so much, as bleak as the future seems right now, don't focus on it. you can get through this, have have clearly been through a lot and you're much stronger than you give yourself credit for

Seronil if I remember correctly. I also used Ketipinor for anxiety/panic attacks.
I stress about the future a lot, mostly because of what I've been through. I'm scared to start things without knowing if or when and how they will end.

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Xenya wrote:

Nami wrote:

Xenya wrote:

Nami wrote:
I had a mental breakdown and called my mom, she told me to go back to a psychiatrist so that I could get time off and wouldn't have to work in this condition and that I'd get meds for depression.

However Idk what to do because I used meds once and it caused me to have even worse condition, and I tried to take my own life. I ended up quitting the meds so that I could drink alcohol because the medicine didn't work. I'm really, really scared to go back there because the drama cuts deep.

@BunnyButts

do you remember what the meds were called? how long were you on them?

i'm really sorry to hear. i can't begin to understand what it feels like to be in your circumstance. You have every right to be angry and betrayed by the therapists calling the cops on you and you are allowed to feel down. but you seem to have been through so much, as bleak as the future seems right now, don't focus on it. you can get through this, you have clearly been through a lot and you're much stronger than you give yourself credit for

Seronil if I remember correctly. I also used Ketipinor for anxiety/panic attacks.
I stress about the future a lot, mostly because of what I've been through. I'm scared to start things without knowing if or when and how they will end.

Seronil takes over 2 weeks to work at the very least, sometimes it can take up to a month and the danger is that your mental health could worsen before it finally becomes effective- this is something doctors are aware of but the drug is a better option than taking nothing.
medications do make a difference to your mood and can help you recover but you have to also be active and try other things to help yourself. It's like trying to lose weight. if you're on a diet pill, yes, you may not feel hungry all the time but you have to also try and diet and exercise.

it's okay to be stressed and afraid of starting things. but you have to remember that every decision we make in our life is a gamble. the only way you can find treasure is if you take the risks and an achievement is not rewarding unless you have had to hard work for it.
I've suffered with depression recently too especially with the coronavirus lockdown. I can understand how difficult it is to get yourself out of the habit, to wake up in the mornings, to face the day and have little enjoyment in what you do.
what has helped me is that I've tried doing more rewarding activities like going for long walks, drawing and painting, finishing my university work.
the way i see depression is that it is suppression of the reward pathway in our brain. if you try and do things that you enjoy and have a sense of satisfaction when doing it, then you will slowly activate that pathway little by little everyday.
do something that you can be proud of yourself for doing, sort out your wardrobe? bake something you have always wanted to try, call someone you haven't spoken to in a while even if you're anxious about it. At

i hope this has been helpful to you xx

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Medusa wrote:

Xenya wrote:

Nami wrote:

Xenya wrote:
do you remember what the meds were called? how long were you on them?

i'm really sorry to hear. i can't begin to understand what it feels like to be in your circumstance. You have every right to be angry and betrayed by the therapists calling the cops on you and you are allowed to feel down. but you seem to have been through so much, as bleak as the future seems right now, don't focus on it. you can get through this, you have clearly been through a lot and you're much stronger than you give yourself credit for

Seronil if I remember correctly. I also used Ketipinor for anxiety/panic attacks.
I stress about the future a lot, mostly because of what I've been through. I'm scared to start things without knowing if or when and how they will end.

Seronil takes over 2 weeks to work at the very least, sometimes it can take up to a month and the danger is that your mental health could worsen before it finally becomes effective- this is something doctors are aware of but the drug is a better option than taking nothing.
medications do make a difference to your mood and can help you recover but you have to also be active and try other things to help yourself. It's like trying to lose weight. if you're on a diet pill, yes, you may not feel hungry all the time but you have to also try and diet and exercise.

it's okay to be stressed and afraid of starting things. but you have to remember that every decision we make in our life is a gamble. the only way you can find treasure is if you take the risks and an achievement is not rewarding unless you have had to hard work for it.
I've suffered with depression recently too especially with the coronavirus lockdown. I can understand how difficult it is to get yourself out of the habit, to wake up in the mornings, to face the day and have little enjoyment in what you do.
what has helped me is that I've tried doing more rewarding activities like going for long walks, drawing and painting, finishing my university work.
the way i see depression is that it is suppression of the reward pathway in our brain. if you try and do things that you enjoy and have a sense of satisfaction when doing it, then you will slowly activate that pathway little by little everyday.
do something that you can be proud of yourself for doing, sort out your wardrobe? bake something you have always wanted to try, call someone you haven't spoken to in a while even if you're anxious about it. At

i hope this has been helpful to you xx

I took it for a year. Yes it got worse that's why I wanted to die in the first place. I know well how seronil works since I have taken it, and my mom has taken it before. The doctor ALSO explained it since she knew that I'd been self destructive. And I don't really feel proud of myself for anything because all I seem to be good at is f'ing up.