Clegane wrote:
because I'm gonna throw what could be a beautiful relationship away
The guy I am into... I am chasing him since October
giving up everything to do what he wants
I thought my patience was infinite but he just doesn't make any time for me at all, I see him maybe 3 times a month and plainly I feel unloved
And now there's this other guy who is showering me with affection and sends me paragraphs on what he likes about me
and I don't know if it counts as cheating because I'm not exactly "in" a relationship with the other man but I did sleep over at new guys place (no sex or anything, just cuddling) and I felt so warm and safe in his arms
I feel so guilty because I only ever wanted to have one man my whole life and now I'm torn between 2 and the relationship with the one guy could turn into something amazing in the future who knows... but also I don't wanna throw a potentially amazing relationship with the other guy away because I'm waiting for someone who'll never want me in that way
I just don't know what I should do
Plus my mom told all my family I am in a relationship with guy 1 so now that's all awkward if I'm with someone new
And I tell my mom some things about guy 2 and I think she's worried I'll be with him because he's 36 and I'm 20 (but she is perfectly fine with guy 1 who's 30) and also he's divorced since 2019 and I know she's not fine with him being wheelchair bound
because I'm gonna throw what could be a beautiful relationship away
The guy I am into... I am chasing him since October
giving up everything to do what he wants
I thought my patience was infinite but he just doesn't make any time for me at all, I see him maybe 3 times a month and plainly I feel unloved
And now there's this other guy who is showering me with affection and sends me paragraphs on what he likes about me
and I don't know if it counts as cheating because I'm not exactly "in" a relationship with the other man but I did sleep over at new guys place (no sex or anything, just cuddling) and I felt so warm and safe in his arms
I feel so guilty because I only ever wanted to have one man my whole life and now I'm torn between 2 and the relationship with the one guy could turn into something amazing in the future who knows... but also I don't wanna throw a potentially amazing relationship with the other guy away because I'm waiting for someone who'll never want me in that way
I just don't know what I should do
Plus my mom told all my family I am in a relationship with guy 1 so now that's all awkward if I'm with someone new
And I tell my mom some things about guy 2 and I think she's worried I'll be with him because he's 36 and I'm 20 (but she is perfectly fine with guy 1 who's 30) and also he's divorced since 2019 and I know she's not fine with him being wheelchair bound