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I hope you guys will have a good winter vacation and/or holiday, and happy new year.
This is sorta my goodbye to vp as I'm leaving
reminiscing about all my time here aka being tragic and hopeful or something because I AM THIS TYPE OF PERSON WHO LIKES Writing my goodbyes.Ā
hey i'm leaving
As some of you know, I've been contemplating whether to stay here or not. For this last year, I've been staying because it brought me more joy than not, and until fall that was working well for me. However, as expected, I end up wasting my entire winter season waiting for something to happen on here and as we know, there's barely any online and there are quite a few topics holding any measure that actually makes it more than a desperate way into feeling like I'm conversing with people. Most of the time, I feel like I'm wasting my time even if it is an easy way to waste time. Over the last weeks and months, there has also come to my mind how much I've used this site as a crutch both for friendships and someone to talk to and escapism when I've needed it, and I think I need to go away from that now and start turning back into my life now that I'm doing somewhat better and am able to actually deal with aspects of my life. (Hopefully, I'm moving out in some months).
all the times i left before lol
I've been on and off on the idea of deleting since I started and for most of the time, it was really just my mind being unstable and thinking quitting was the solution to my misery. It's always about the idea of the person we think we'll we be if we change or do x thing in our life. For me, even since my gsm days, it has been "what if I just quit and got a good life" = this game is the source of my misery, and it is not, it's my habits around it, the things I neglect when I prioritize it. That realization kept me here this year: if it gives me joy, it's worth it, but lately it's been very little of anything here. I feel like I've waited for a long time for changes to *maybe* happen to this site, but at this point I'm fairly sure, mr. virtualpopstar is too late, and that's really what I signed up for from the start.
love u guys but not all about this community
Anyways, I'm happy for all of those of you I have met here and gotten to know, and everyone who have helped me out when I needed it and who have engaged in my topics. I have had a lot of wonderful times here when the community showed up for each other and we decided to be wholesome, and friendly, and smart(is)!! I loved when I was new and everything was innocent and I still believed in the good of the people here - there was so much to connect over and cross-platform and the Wintersnight event was a dream. Through the years tho, it has been a rapid lesson in just how human we are, just how gray we all are when it comes to the end, and that not being on the good or bad side of something is the ulitmate downfall of character even tho it totally can be a dealbreaker as much as not choosing a side can be. (I've been fairly lucky to learn these in this micro-cosmos. Imagine going through all of our additional on-site shit irl, LMAOF.)
thank u for being supportive
The support and interest you guys have shown in what I loved and wanted to write about, was something I always wanted to experience. I used to want to be "this person" when Gsm was running, spent years trying to be "cool enough" to be that person as a teen, only to become an idea of "that person" and realizing it's just me being me and talking about stuff I like and know something about. I never really thought i'd dare to take up so much space anywhere online either. So bottom line: stay educated (to a degree) and stay kind āš» It's gonna help you out a lot w\ friendships.Ā
all the shit tho
I've also had some of my shitties internet memories here thus far, and this whole ordeal with the drama going behind close to every team just going straight back to this site missing proper overview and control, is like an exhausting circle of repetition. Honestly, I wish we one day woke up and chose gentleness and kindness toward each other (as it seems many of us already do now and then), but we still cling to that idea that vp has to be bad and will always be bad, and I can't, for one, not stand for that to be the reputation we have chosen for ourselves because we were failed from the top down and had some era where a lot of us were struggling and the content representing it and some rundowns.... like we are never getting over it, are we??
I honestly believe that there are so many of you that know so much more than you let on, and have so much more to give if you wanted and had the time\energy and that that participation mostly would be positive. (I feel like I've given all I could to this site at this point topic-wise.) I also understand the why- people would not want to go down that road themselves. (Maybe if this wasn't the internet or something.) But yeah, the topics are practically dead now, and that's really it for me b\c that's the main reason I signed up - to seek a community.
I've decided to keep my user for a few more days (gotta finish the calendar topic and such) and then I'll be taking my leave. So that was it, the sob-story. Hope you guys get a great 2022!Ā
tldr: I'll be leaving in a couple of days + sobstory.
I hope you guys will have a good winter vacation and/or holiday, and happy new year.
This is sorta my goodbye to vp as I'm leaving
reminiscing about all my time here aka being tragic and hopeful or something because I AM THIS TYPE OF PERSON WHO LIKES Writing my goodbyes.Ā
hey i'm leaving
As some of you know, I've been contemplating whether to stay here or not. For this last year, I've been staying because it brought me more joy than not, and until fall that was working well for me. However, as expected, I end up wasting my entire winter season waiting for something to happen on here and as we know, there's barely any online and there are quite a few topics holding any measure that actually makes it more than a desperate way into feeling like I'm conversing with people. Most of the time, I feel like I'm wasting my time even if it is an easy way to waste time. Over the last weeks and months, there has also come to my mind how much I've used this site as a crutch both for friendships and someone to talk to and escapism when I've needed it, and I think I need to go away from that now and start turning back into my life now that I'm doing somewhat better and am able to actually deal with aspects of my life. (Hopefully, I'm moving out in some months).
all the times i left before lol
I've been on and off on the idea of deleting since I started and for most of the time, it was really just my mind being unstable and thinking quitting was the solution to my misery. It's always about the idea of the person we think we'll we be if we change or do x thing in our life. For me, even since my gsm days, it has been "what if I just quit and got a good life" = this game is the source of my misery, and it is not, it's my habits around it, the things I neglect when I prioritize it. That realization kept me here this year: if it gives me joy, it's worth it, but lately it's been very little of anything here. I feel like I've waited for a long time for changes to *maybe* happen to this site, but at this point I'm fairly sure, mr. virtualpopstar is too late, and that's really what I signed up for from the start.
love u guys but not all about this community
Anyways, I'm happy for all of those of you I have met here and gotten to know, and everyone who have helped me out when I needed it and who have engaged in my topics. I have had a lot of wonderful times here when the community showed up for each other and we decided to be wholesome, and friendly, and smart(is)!! I loved when I was new and everything was innocent and I still believed in the good of the people here - there was so much to connect over and cross-platform and the Wintersnight event was a dream. Through the years tho, it has been a rapid lesson in just how human we are, just how gray we all are when it comes to the end, and that not being on the good or bad side of something is the ulitmate downfall of character even tho it totally can be a dealbreaker as much as not choosing a side can be. (I've been fairly lucky to learn these in this micro-cosmos. Imagine going through all of our additional on-site shit irl, LMAOF.)
thank u for being supportive
The support and interest you guys have shown in what I loved and wanted to write about, was something I always wanted to experience. I used to want to be "this person" when Gsm was running, spent years trying to be "cool enough" to be that person as a teen, only to become an idea of "that person" and realizing it's just me being me and talking about stuff I like and know something about. I never really thought i'd dare to take up so much space anywhere online either. So bottom line: stay educated (to a degree) and stay kind āš» It's gonna help you out a lot w\ friendships.Ā
all the shit tho
I've also had some of my shitties internet memories here thus far, and this whole ordeal with the drama going behind close to every team just going straight back to this site missing proper overview and control, is like an exhausting circle of repetition. Honestly, I wish we one day woke up and chose gentleness and kindness toward each other (as it seems many of us already do now and then), but we still cling to that idea that vp has to be bad and will always be bad, and I can't, for one, not stand for that to be the reputation we have chosen for ourselves because we were failed from the top down and had some era where a lot of us were struggling and the content representing it and some rundowns.... like we are never getting over it, are we??
I honestly believe that there are so many of you that know so much more than you let on, and have so much more to give if you wanted and had the time\energy and that that participation mostly would be positive. (I feel like I've given all I could to this site at this point topic-wise.) I also understand the why- people would not want to go down that road themselves. (Maybe if this wasn't the internet or something.) But yeah, the topics are practically dead now, and that's really it for me b\c that's the main reason I signed up - to seek a community.
I've decided to keep my user for a few more days (gotta finish the calendar topic and such) and then I'll be taking my leave. So that was it, the sob-story. Hope you guys get a great 2022!Ā
tldr: I'll be leaving in a couple of days + sobstory.
You've been super lovely to have around on here. Wish you all the best on the outside! Can definitely understand your decision, props to you 
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Totally get the exhaustion though, if the social aspect and whatnot was what I was mainly here for I'd probably also be leaving lmao.. 
