bee wrote:
my dad is so drunk rn he cant even walk straight. the entire downstairs stinks of booze. im so tired of this being every single night. and at day he is oh so tired cant do nothing but sit and watch tv till late night when he can start drinking again. i hate him so much. i honestly hate him so fucking much i cant even breathe when he walks by or say a single word to him unless he say something first. this is gonna sound so gruesome but i wish the cancer had taken his life. that is the truth. i wished it from the very moment i was told about it. instead he had an easy operation and i was all over in a few months. i truly believe things would be better if he wasnt here, not just for me but for my mother too. i cant imagine what it must be like for her to live with this horrible person as her partner for so many years. ive noticed she is becoming more like the way i am too in front of him. barely talks to him and reply with short sentences or one words. getting tense when he enter the room. things like that. i think my mom has a deep trauma inside of her. and i dont think she knows that she can be helped, that her kids are adults and she can escape this world she is trapped in. i wish i could tell her to just leave. leave everything behind and start living for herself. i want to cry and scream and break everything but i cant do that so thats why im writing this here i just need someone to know this is how i feel all the fucking time
my dad is so drunk rn he cant even walk straight. the entire downstairs stinks of booze. im so tired of this being every single night. and at day he is oh so tired cant do nothing but sit and watch tv till late night when he can start drinking again. i hate him so much. i honestly hate him so fucking much i cant even breathe when he walks by or say a single word to him unless he say something first. this is gonna sound so gruesome but i wish the cancer had taken his life. that is the truth. i wished it from the very moment i was told about it. instead he had an easy operation and i was all over in a few months. i truly believe things would be better if he wasnt here, not just for me but for my mother too. i cant imagine what it must be like for her to live with this horrible person as her partner for so many years. ive noticed she is becoming more like the way i am too in front of him. barely talks to him and reply with short sentences or one words. getting tense when he enter the room. things like that. i think my mom has a deep trauma inside of her. and i dont think she knows that she can be helped, that her kids are adults and she can escape this world she is trapped in. i wish i could tell her to just leave. leave everything behind and start living for herself. i want to cry and scream and break everything but i cant do that so thats why im writing this here i just need someone to know this is how i feel all the fucking time



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