Cute wrote:
my dad had/has a colon cancer, it got noticed like in 2005 and they just said that ok there's a "small" cancer tumor in your colon so we'll just cut it out. Instead what the MRI etc did not show that it was a huge (the doctor used the word huge and it made me, the 7-year-old me want to punch him) mass that had spread from the colon to his pancreas and was just pretty much all over his stomach. And they cut some of it out, some that they could find. Cut out huge part of his colon, small part of his pancreas. And they couldn't get it all out .-. But here my dad still is, living and breathing. There are some days that he's worse (he was dumped out of the clinic cause well NOTHINg theY CAN DO - ye right just bitchy about money) but most of the time he's doing what wants to do. And it kinda saddens me that we are not too close, makes me feel like an awful person for not being there. Even tho he doesn't really see the need for me to be there. I'd still kinda want to.
But he has taught me so much to live a day by day, and when I worry I just remember him saying that the cancer doesn't really matter since there are sudden things that can take someone away, it can be a car crash happening tomorrow, a heart attack happening now, so I shouldn't worry about everything. I should live my life, not waiting for death (mine or anyone elses) but to experience life day by day <: