cobain wrote:
ok yes, it was about that.Β
he said that he doesn't see the point of talking to someone and telling them that i don't want him to know, that he has nothing to do with it, and if i didn't want to tell him, that's fine. but then there's no reason to say that i don't want him to know to someone else, or something.
i told him that it's not that i didn't want to tell him, it's no secret. i just haven't known HOW or when to tell him because it feels like i'll do wrong no matter what i do. like, how do you tell someone you're in love with that you're seeing someone else? (hello i've never even so much as mentioned my feelings for him when i'm sober so i'm rly whipping out my heart here fml)
told him that it was clumsy of me to say it to others because it'll get to him eventually instead, and that's not what i wanted. but that it's never ever been about me wanting to keep things from him. never.
also said that when i'm drunk i can't shut up and that i think about him so much, so sadly that means that i end up talking about him too. and that i've felt bad for not telling him about it, so then i just blurted it out to someone, i guess.Β
aaaand that i'm not seeing that person seriously and then it has felt weird telling him about it because it's only "temporary".
i have no idea if my answer as good. i feel like i focused more on the whole seeing someone else-part instead of the keeping things from him-part. but i just tried explaining myself, why i haven't told him, why i might've said that i didn't want him to know to someone else (which... i actually doubt that i have because i truthfully want him to know, i've just struggled on how to tell him)
asked him if i'd said something else. not to undermine his feelings, but i feel like this is quite a "small" thing to get so upset about. i could barely walk due to crying so much yesterday when he got angry at me, i thought i was going to lose him.
ok yes, it was about that.Β
he said that he doesn't see the point of talking to someone and telling them that i don't want him to know, that he has nothing to do with it, and if i didn't want to tell him, that's fine. but then there's no reason to say that i don't want him to know to someone else, or something.
i told him that it's not that i didn't want to tell him, it's no secret. i just haven't known HOW or when to tell him because it feels like i'll do wrong no matter what i do. like, how do you tell someone you're in love with that you're seeing someone else? (hello i've never even so much as mentioned my feelings for him when i'm sober so i'm rly whipping out my heart here fml)
told him that it was clumsy of me to say it to others because it'll get to him eventually instead, and that's not what i wanted. but that it's never ever been about me wanting to keep things from him. never.
also said that when i'm drunk i can't shut up and that i think about him so much, so sadly that means that i end up talking about him too. and that i've felt bad for not telling him about it, so then i just blurted it out to someone, i guess.Β
aaaand that i'm not seeing that person seriously and then it has felt weird telling him about it because it's only "temporary".
i have no idea if my answer as good. i feel like i focused more on the whole seeing someone else-part instead of the keeping things from him-part. but i just tried explaining myself, why i haven't told him, why i might've said that i didn't want him to know to someone else (which... i actually doubt that i have because i truthfully want him to know, i've just struggled on how to tell him)
asked him if i'd said something else. not to undermine his feelings, but i feel like this is quite a "small" thing to get so upset about. i could barely walk due to crying so much yesterday when he got angry at me, i thought i was going to lose him.