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Personal: Things to keep me sane and motivated until I move from away from Oslo  The ultimate goal for this year is, as I keep bringing up at every possible moment, getting the fuck away from Oslo. I absolutely hate, with every cell of my body I might add, to live there. It is uncomfortable, it is a mess, it is lonely, it is awful, and my limit is reached. Naturally, I have to finish my degree, one of the major forces to even get me down to Oslo (alongside a matter which I unfortunately think is too private to add here). I have managed, or will manage, to finish my degree in 2 years instead of 3 as it turned out to be a lot smarter than what I initially thought to take a year unit at NTNU in Trondheim in English prior to moving from my hometown. As long as I pass all my exams, I will be done with my degree by June 2020 rather than June 2021, which is an achievement and it is good and I am proud of that. According research and thinking I’ve conducted the autumn of 2019, I can move from Oslo in mid-May and the only thing that can possibly get me down there are serious things like health and life/death. I am done with it. It will be the end of a horrible chapter of my life, but the experience is probably worth something, time will tell. To avoid making this only about how little I want to be in Oslo and my plans of leaving Oslo, mostly for myself, I will list a few things to look forward to so it doesn’t feel as bad to go back, then I have things to keep my mind off the awful situation I feel like I am in. Naturally, finishing a degree, my BA, is something to look forward to. But in reality I’m not really a person who sees any personal value in it. It is something to allow me to go further with studying giving that my average doesn’t hit below C. I would rather look forward to something starting than something ending, I look forward to a future in which I hopefully get into an MA programme within my field, linguistics. If not, I need to have a back-up plan. I don’t think a BA alone in linguistics will open any doors other than further studying. One thing that is recurring and which I look forward to all the time is hockey, predominantly watching the team I like play. The game schedule of Colorado Avalanche contains a lot of potential good days, or rather, nights in the future. The NHL regular season lasts until April, given that Avalanche plays as they have up until this point, their season will contain at least 4 games in the Stanley Cup playoffs (obviously, I would prefer it is a lot more, ideally they win the Stanley Cup, but I think it’s better to look forward to certainty rather than clinch onto what might be). I look forward to the reveal of what new Moomin mugs will be for sale this year, especially the seasonal mugs. As Arabia retired three mugs in 2019, I assume they will reveal at least two new mugs. Obviously, one of them will be Snorkmaiden which I honestly don’t feel, but c’est la vie when you collect. This year I will hit 50 mugs, as I already have 49 in my collection. I am confident I will get a few more, but 50 is a milestone. When I get my 50th, I will update the picture on my profile to show what mugs are now in my collection. I don’t think other people pay attention to it but it matters to me personally and that is the only thing that matters. In March, I will 100%, even if I have to walk, go home for a week or so to celebrate my 22nd birthday. My birthday is among the few celebratory things I care about, not a lot, but enough to know that I have no wish whatsoever to celebrate it alone in my tiny one-room apartment eating whatever I can afford at the time and be lonely. That is simply too sad. It is also nice to get away from Oslo (lmao) every now and then and I need stuff like that. Furthermore, in April, only a few weeks later, I will go home again for Easter as there’s no way in hell I spend time in Oslo if I don’t have any obligations to be there. I have also planned to be in Trondheim about a week longer than the vacation is, so in total that removes 3 of the 18 weeks I have to be in Oslo before I move. Meaning that it’s only 15 weeks of suffering. That’s good! Another thing that happens in March is that the 2020 Formula 1 season begins and I am excited. Perhaps I will get even more into it this season, perhaps the drivers I like will improve. Perhaps the drivers I dislike do worse! All the potentially good things to look forward to. There aren’t many races in a year, it will be one more in 2020, however. Also, a new F1 season equals new F1 memes and more Lando Norris and Carlos Sainz. The good things in life. By April 15th, I must have applied for the MA programmes I qualify for and is interested in pursuing - and willing. Obviously, the programme offered in Oslo does not appeal to me, regardless of how fantastic I find the professors. I cannot make myself stay there any longer than absolutely necessary. Bergen is also not happening, I won’t elaborate on why, it just is not going to happen. Hopefully I get into the programme offered in Tromsø. I can see I am not afraid at all of telling whatever person reads this about my potential whereabouts, lol. I also need to apply for the back-up plans I intend to have. So, ideally I should spend some time researching things I potentially can get into - which I also manage to be motivated enough to pursue. May = Eurovision and the world championships of ice hockey (men). 2019 was the year of my Eurovision boycott. I doubt I will ever get as into it as I was prior to my boycott, if I’m going to be completely honest. The schedule of the world championship clashes with Eurovision, and I think I am more likely to priority watching Finland play rather than watching something that kind of lost its appeal to me. Given that Finland doesn’t disappoint me beyond words, but I suppose regardless we cannot complain as Finland was the 2019 champions and I could watch the entire run completely without any disturbance because of the boycott I did. Regardless, it is hopefully something to look forward to. By mid/mid-to-late May, I will no longer live in Oslo. Everything beyond that point is just extra positivity in my life. Hopefully. The plan was to see Green Day live in Ålesund but I honestly don’t think that is going to happen. No matter what tho, I will see Rammstein live in Trondheim. I hope I wilI find someone to take with me, obviously they will not get the ticket free as I don’t do charity like that, I would rather go alone with two tickets than take someone with me for free when the ticket cost more than 1000 NOK. Also, obviously, I look forward to learning new things about linguistics in the months that follow. I hope this year gets better than the previous years of my life. At some point it will have to improve! And jumping briefly to something I hope I will experience in 2020, Colorado Avalanche is going to play live in my dad’s hometown, Helsinki. It would be beyond words amazing to get to see a team I love, in a country I love, hopefully winning the match(es). I will try to get tickets, hopefully I can get my dad to go with me. It would mean a lot for me to see my dad get to go back to his hometown before he gets too sick. I suspect it is something he wants, so hopefully that happens. As long as it is not too expensive. It could be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. Perhaps the NHL decides to stop having matches played in Europe, and I can’t see myself going to the US to see a match. There are things to look forward to and I hope things go okay, at least get more survivable. I am growing a bit tired of having a life that is only about surviving until the next event, hopefully, this is a year which steps in the direction of having a life that is living and not surviving. Fun read for everyone, 10/10 would recommend. PS: I honestly do not give a fuck if there are any mistakes or anything in this text, so that was all I think.  PS 2: I don't do layouts this is what you get. I made it better with gifs so it isn't only a wall of text. |
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